I stand in front of my door groggily and I'm literally just staring at the door blankly. This shit really happens when you didn't get enough sleep. Yesterday while I'm inside Jennie's apartment I was really worried. I even begged to let me see her stomach just to see if that douchebag left a mark and surprisingly there's none. Jennie kept denying it as well saying that she's just not feeling well... Which is not true.
When I heard footsteps outside I immediately lean towards the door to peek if Jennie's coming out already. It's hard for me to sleep knowing that it might be Kang who did that to her. I peek over and saw that it's a different person making me sigh. That's when my phone rings so I answered it without looking
"Lisa are you coming to work today? It's fine if you'll rest today" I heard Mingyu said from the other line
"No it's fine, I'm better now" I said as I heard another footsteps outside so I peeked out again and saw Jennie this time "I gotta go, I'll meet you at the studio" I said and didn't bother waiting for his answer as I open the door making Jennie look towards me. She immediately look away and head towards the elevator but I run and stand infront of her. "How are you feeling? Did he hurt you again?" I asked
"I told you, I was just not feeling well" she said as she step to the side so she can go towards the elevator so this time I walk next to her
"You can lie to everyone but not me... I know you too well" I said proudly
"Then why can't you notice that I don't want to talk about it?" She said as she's the one who stopped from walking. I turn to look at her, she doesn't look furious... She looks blank and I'm not used to that
"Then we won't. I'll just find answers myself" I said, she roll her eyes as she continue walking towards the elevator "did you eat breakfast? Where's Ella?"
"Kang will drive her to school " she said
"Why do you address him like that?" I ask as we step inside the elevator
"Like what?"
"Kang... You barely call me by my name before. It's either you're serious or you're mad. Shouldn't you call Kang hubby, darling, pumpkin pie, strawberry pudding or something"
"When did I use cheesy endearments?" She said, blank tone but at least she's having a conversation with me
"Right... Jennie, call me or text me whenever you don't feel fine alright? Or if that patient of yours harasses you again" I said. The elevator door opens at the parking lot but we stood there, I'm just waiting for her to say something.
"Lisa, let's not go further-"
"Oh yeah sure, I'm gonna go back to my apartment-"
"I don't mean it like that" she cut me off as well "I told you that you shouldn't step the line. Whatever happen, stay out of it. Let's picture each other as strangers, as someone who's just living in the same apartment building, but let's not get closer like before. I am married and anything within my marriage doesn't concern you. It's been years Lisa, I was mad at you... But to give you peace, I have forgiven you. If you're here for closure then I'm giving it to you. I don't love you anymore, we broke up 5 years ago so I hope you will finally move on." She step out of the elevator door before it even closes. Just like that, she gave me the closure and forgiveness that I've been longing for five years. I wanted that but... That whole statement gives me pain more than it gave me peace.
I stood inside the elevator for a couple of minutes until it open again since someone's gonna use it as well. The lady looked at me oddly since I'm just standing there staring into the distance... I don't really blame her. Once she gets off I push the button towards my apartment floor. I don't know why I became more tired than I already am because of not sleeping.
I just went straight to my room to grab my phone, bag and car keys. I didn't even bother eating breakfast. So does her statement means that I need to go back to Thailand? She did say that we can act as neighbors or something. I'm just being a hypocrite at this point.
I walk straight to the elevator and go down to the parking lot. As I get inside my car, I open up my phone and called Jisoo. I don't know what time it is there but I just wanna talk to someone so I won't lose my sanity
"Ya Lisa, I'm in the plane right now and we're about to go. I can't use my phone right now, let's talk later okay?" She said as fast as she can. I just let her end the call as I continue driving. I also called Seulgi but Irene was the one who answered... By the sound of her voice she probably woke up because of my call so I told her that I can just talk to Seulgi later. I didn't even bother calling Rosie too since she's probably sleeping as well. I just drive straight to the studio since I can't really talk to anyone right now.
When I arrived, there are probably 3 staffs inside, Mingyu's not around yet so I go straight to my table and put my head down and close my eyes. My day's starting really good.
After a couple of minutes I heard the door creaks and in just a few seconds someone knock on my table making me look up to see Mingyu placing a coffee on my table and a paper bag
"What's this?" I asked pointing at the paper bag
"I bought some sandwich incase you haven't had your breakfast yet" but I don't have an appetite... I also don't want him to feel bad if I reject the food
"Thanks" I said plainly as I grab a sandwich inside
"You alright?"
"Like world crashing down kind of alright? Yes I certainly am" I said opening up the sandwich. Mingyu gave me a tight-lipped smile probably not wanting to laugh at my state right now despite the joke I spit out. He was gonna open his mouth when his phone interrupts him.
"Wait a minute" he said and pull his phone out to answer it. When will my friends call me? I need someone to call me too "yeah dad" oh, he's talking to his dad. I sit there looking at Mingyu while eating my sandwich little by little "I told you to stop searching already. It's not like you're getting younger at this point" he said chuckling "you've been searching for years and you only have the name. Just rest alright? I'll call you later" he put his phone back on his pocket as he take a seat
"Your dad's searching for something?' I asked
"More like someone" he said smiling again "oh it's funny cause you actually have the same name as the person on the letter?" Letter??? Fucking hell... Don't tell me
"What letter?" I said
"Woah, your mood literally changed in a blink of an eye. Anyway, as I was saying a letter arrived at our house in Korea 5 years ago. The address was indefinite that's probably why it got lost in the mail. The letter only has Lisa as the receiver since my dad read the 'dear Lisa' part. He said that it seems very personal that he didn't want to read the whole letter. He kept it for 5 years and tries searching for someone named Lisa but South Korea is very huge and there's probably thousands of Lisa.. like you"
