Evolution Of Everything

HEAD BACK

I want my head back.

I do not like this song.

I want my life back. 

I don't like these words and won't sing along.

I'm so tired of filtering, through all these painful memories. 

It's time now to start healing, let go of that melody. 

It's time to think of current me. 

I've wasted so much time, I've spent too much life.

Overanalyzing, wasted it all daydreaming. 

Of the person I could have been, knowing that person is. not. me. 

There comes a time when hoping, can only lead to hurting.

Reality is not well accepted, but just the same it can't be rejected.

There's no denying so just accept it. 

Because if you want your life back, you'll have to give up on that song. 

You can never be her, it's time now to move along. 

I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired, my goal in life isn't to be desired, andmy priorities lie so much higher, but what I tell myself makes me a liar. 

I know I shouldn't like this song, shouldn't know the words or sing along. 

Yet the lyrics escape my lips so bittersweetly, and this painful melody I keep repeating. 

Why am I drawn to the lyrics, when the tale they tell is what breaks my spirits?

It's easy to make the future seem rosy, when you keep the bad memories from showing. 

Reality may be a let down, but that's because you're not living in the now. 

I keep dreaming of a future that I know can't exist, but when a chance at it comes I'll still choose to resist. 

I'll hesitate and think of her and how she would've handled it, but she isn't real, it's only me, and I'll still have to deal with it. 

Because there are some chances that I will need to take, I've been dreaming of her so long I forgot how to be awake. 

I'm so tired of living this half of a life, I'm hitting mute it's time to listen to another vibe. 

Because if I want my soul back, I will have to fight this song.

If I want my heart back, I can't get drawn in, can't sing along. 

 I want my head back, I know that I don't like this song, I don't like the way it makes me feel,
don't want to hear the words just

Turn. 

It. 

Off.