There are so many times when you cannot hear me.
Times when you try and fail to get near me
If feels awful and wrong to lie the way I do
But it hurts even more to know that my thoughts might hurt you.
You hear the words "I love you." But what you miss is what comes after.
It's "I love you, more than I can afford to." and that matters.
Because when you wisen up and realize I'm not good enough
I'll never recover from my addiction to your love.
You'll carry on, and find someone else, someone who truly makes you happy.
And I'll live a life knowing that I was always right, no one could love a girl so sad and so sappy.
You say you'll never get annoyed, and that I'm more than just a sex toy.
But when my hair is messy, and the sex is less fun and more steady,
We'll see how you feel about all your bold words, and your claims that
I'll never be normal, no matter how hard I try. There will never be a year where I don't seriously want to die. I know that I've never been good enough, I let down my friends, my family, and now my love. Is it wrong of me to ask, to beg, you to stay?
When I know that trying to love me is like trying to hold a conversation with a grave?
I know that I hurt them, and I make them concerned. And that stings so much more than any cut or any burn.
They'd be better off if they'd never have met me,
All that I'm good for is making life messy.
Think of the calm, the peace and serenity,
If I dropped off this planet for the rest of eternity.
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Evolution Of Everything
PoetryA collection of poems, spoken word, and verbal processing. It's mostly here as a reminder for me of where I was and where I am, so that I never forget. Some of them are silly and fun, but most of them are deeply personal accounts of some of my harde...
