little love

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when calum woke up the next morning, it was around six in the morning due to his whole body hurting, especially his bum and thighs. it takes him a couple of seconds to get up, since he didnt want to move at all, but he didnt want to be close to his daddy.

whenever he looked over to ashton...all he wanted to do was cry.

so, he slides out of bed and then gets up. it burns, standing on his own two legs. yet, he starts to walk anyway, well, more of limp away. more pain radiated from his bum as he moved, but that wasn't gonna stop him.

the little goes into his room, and lets his body collapse on his bed. only then does he let himself start to cry again. its not that...calum enjoys having sex with ashton, and he loves how dominant ashton can be but the second time...it was too much for the little. the way ashton was just nailing him...the little couldn't understand why.

the little couldn't think of anything he had done wrong to deserve that.

the problem was, the little had such a hard time being upset with his daddy. big boy calum never had a second thought when he argued with ashton...but when he was little, all the little wanted was to have fun with his daddy.

calum eventually wears himself out from all of his crying, and manages to fall back asleep.

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ashton woke up, and was surprised to wake up alone.

"sweetheart?" ashton calls out as he sits up. the house was silent, which made ashton worry more. ashton quietly pads out of his room, and goes to check calums playroom first.

it was empty.

then, he checks calums little room. a loud sigh escapes when he finds calum fast asleep on his bed. ashton walks over, pulls a blanket over calums body, kisses his head, and then slowly leaves calums room.

the older boy gets to work on making breakfast - he decides to make chocolate chip pancakes, eggs, sausage, and bacon. something big that he knew calum would enjoy, specially since calum loved his pancakes.

by the time ashton is finished cooking everything, calum still hadn't come down. so, ashton just loads three pancakes, three sausages, four pieces of bacon and some scrambled eggs onto a plate. then, he pours some apple juice into calums favorite sippy cup.

"sweetheart," ashton calls out as he carries the plate and sippy cup, "breakfast is ready."

ashton uses his foot to push calums door the rest of the way open, and coos softly when calum is still fast asleep.

"sweetheart," ashton says softly, walking towards the bed, "wake up. daddy made breakfast."

the little slowly opens his eyes, and lets out a quiet yawn.

"there's my pretty little babyboy," ashton says, making calum whine a bit, "why dont you sit up, that way we can eat breakfast?"

calum couldn't say no. firstly, because he was hungry and the food smelled so good...that was his only reason. so, the little sits up, and moves over that way ashton could sit next to him.

"here, its juice sweetie," ashton says, handing the little his sippy cup.

"tanks," calum mumbles, taking it from ashton's hand. the little sets the cup down between his thighs, then looks at the plate that rests on ashtons lap.

"take what you want, sweetheart," ashton says, "i made it for you."

calum hesitantly reaches for a pancake, making ashton smile.

"good boy," ashton says, smiling softly at calum. the little starts to eat his pancake, and after he finishes it he grabs a piece of bacon and starts to eat that.

"i have more?" calum asks softly, looking at ashton with his pretty dough eyes.

"you can have as much as you want, sweetheart."

calum nods, and grabs another pancake. they eat in silence, mostly. it still felt odd to calum because he loved his daddy, he really did. yet, he couldn't look at his daddy and not feel abused.

calum wasnt strong enough to bring it up, either. there was one too many feelings in his chest that he was fighting.

in fact, calum got so upset, he came out of his headspace and looked over to ashton with sad eyes.

"ash?"

"hey, sweetheart," ashton says, "are you still hungry?"

"no...i, um," calum says, "why did you do that yesterday?"

"do what?"

"you...you hurt me, yesterday," calum mumbles, "you just...why'd you keep going?"

"you didn't say your safeword," ashton says immediately, "you didn't say stop. you didn't act like you didn't want it, so i don't want to hear it."

calum sighs, feeling tears cloud his eyes, "i didnt have to say anything, ashton! you should've been able to...to see..."

ashton rolls his eyes, "whatever. you're always the victim, no matter what. i didnt do anything wrong."

ashton sets the plate of food down, and just walks out of calums room.

"whats happening to us?" calum whispers, before letting out a sob.

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