Far Away Love (Yizhan. Zhanyi)✅

Chapter 36 (Let's do it)

Chapter 36 (Let's do it)

Zhan was silent for a moment and he breath in and out, again and again while his di di cries non-stop in his embrace till he feels his shirt is soak but although Zhan just tear but it doesn't mean that his pain is less that Yibo, he is also dying inside, yet he has to support his di di outside. Zhan continue to close his eyes to soak up Yibo's pain and his thought has gone into the deep ocean trying to find a way to get out of the dark pit both of them are sinking in and in the end with his shaken body and voice, he lean in and kiss his di di lips very gently and with love and soft voices, he told Yibo

"I am going to marry you, if you allows me to"

YIbo stops for a while, he thought he heard wrong because marry is something that he would not expect in his life. His father married his mother and they have a happy life till his mother passed away and his father trying to forget his mother by devoting all his time into business, business and business, so much so that he had even forgotten that he had children. The kind of marriage between his father and mother,  Yibo did not understand much because his mother passed away when he was quite young but there were times that he hope that he was not born as his father never spent time on him, so marriage is not something that Yibo has great understanding so he asks

"What is marriage, who marry who?" Yibo asks mumblingly as this seems like a topic that he has not much understanding but Yibo is nervous and he starts to tremble a little when Zhan is hugging him

Zhan could feel the uncertainties in Yibo and he regretted the suggestion, deeply knowing that this is too sudden and his bo di has no understanding of marriage, also he feels painful, maybe just maybe Yibo feels attached to him as someone that he needed as a big brother not as someone that he will love as a partner forever.... this has sadden the ge ge, Zhan knew that Yibo although has a big brother but the big brother has not much of a sibling relationship with Yibo. Now, words are spoken but emotions are flying high because of the situation they both are in, each having their own thoughts and perspectives which is hurting the others unknowingly.

Zhan sigh heavily and he pulls away from Yibo and looks outside of the window and let the darkness sink into his dark orbs making it darker and darker till it turns into red when the dark silent night seems to mark the sadness in his life. He turns to his bodi and gives a smile which take a lot of effort because of the condition of his heart and he breath heavily and spoke

"I-I am so-sorry ge ge blurt out too fast and di di is not ready yet" Zhan slowly sounds his words with quiver lips because his heart is pounding too much pain in him.

Yibo couldn't understand his ge ge pain and he looks at Zhan and notices the red eyes and also the quiver lips, and when Zhan closes his eyes, the tears that he thought he is holding well fell and roll down Zhan already slim check, Yibo quickly lift his finger to capture the tears that are rolling down. As soon as the tears landed on his fingers, Yibo puts into his mouth and lick it and he asks   

"Why is ge ge saying sorry, I don't understand, why am I not ready?" Yibo asks and he caress Zhan's pale cheek.

Zhan opens his eyes and he could see how close Yibo face is to him and he also lift up his hand and caress Yibo cheek

"How can I ask you to marry me when you don't even understand marriage?" Zhan told Yibo

"Then, ge ge can teach me, I don't want to know about marriage from anyone rather than ge ge" Yibo told Zhan and both of them are now staring at each other