My Irresistible Bad Boy [COMPLETED]

First love

JANESSA POV

Since that day, I feel like Chris started to avoid me. At first, I try to ignore him; I thought he has some works to do but I realize that he was hiding something from me. Same goes for Marlene. Whenever she came, she tried to avoid talking about Chris to me.

I need to talk with him. At night I saw Chris who is standing at the balcony while thinking about something deeply.

''Hey'', I greeted him. He turns to look at me. ''you ok?'', I asked him in concern.

He smiles but I feel like it's a fake smile and nodded his head. Holding his hand, I looked up to him. ''I'm sorry Chris. I'm sorry if I hurt you... I know you are still angry with me because I brought back your past. I promise I won't do that anymore'', I said guiltily.

His eyes were staring at me guiltily like he done some mistakes. I'm not an idiot to not realize about it.

''You did nothing wrong, Janessa'', he smiles; palming my cheek. ''It's me...''

''What you did?'', I ask him but he maintains his silence. When he about to say something, his phone rang and then left me. That night he didn't back home.

More importantly, he forgets my birthday....

Things like this always happen whenever I wanted to harbor my feelings for someone. It hurts though. He gave me so many memories and now I'm talking like he's going to leave me....

Isn't he?

While I was thinking about my life, looking up, my thought was interrupted my Nick's sudden appearance.

''Hey...'', I greeted him casually. ''you are here?''

He nodded. ''I need to talk with you.... Privately'', his expression doesn't look fine.

''what happened? Is it about Chris?'', I asked him anxiously.

''Janessa, I don't know why fate lets you meet with him.... At first, I thought you are not interested in him since you know...'', he paused. ''he's younger than you'', he added.

His words were true.... But then... something changed. My feelings...

''Maya didn't leave Chris because she loves me. She lied to everyone except me'', his words make me turn to see him. ''Maya is like a sister to me. I never think of her more than that. Same goes for her'', he smiles lightly.

''Then why she left him?'', I asked him; controlling my heartaches.

''Her mother died due to chronic leukemia.... And last time when she donated her blood, she found out that she's having that disease as well'', he looked sad.

''It was early stage and we thought that we can cure her but... she said that she's going to die anyway. Because she saw her mother's suffering due to that illness'', he sighed.

''That's why she broke up with Chris early. Because she doesn't want Chris to suffer seeing her dying in front of her'', he explained to me.

''She's back isn't it?'', I asked him without giving any expression.

He nodded heavy heartedly. ''She just wanted to meet him for one last time. That's why she came here. Thank God, she was recovering from her illness, but we don't know for how long. She needs to be observed every day'', he stated.

''How Chris met her?''

''It was an accident. Maya was on her way to the airport and that's when she bumped into him. He was the Grab driver she gets. He was furious at first seeing me together with her and that's how I blurted out everything to him. I'm sorry Janessa. Both are my precious persons and.... I...'' he stopped.

''And you don't want me to interfere in their relationship'', I chuckled sarcastically. He didn't say anything but looked guilty towards me.

''don't worry Nick. We are not in a relationship since the beginning. And come on.... Between me and her, whom do you think he will choose anyway?'', I smile. ''It's her... you know why?'', I asked him.

''You guys didn't understand him well. Why he behaves like that when she left him? He's heartbroken! I guess that's what everyone thinks. No, the truth is, after your mother died when he was just 5 years old, Maya filled that gap. That's why he was so in love with her. Because he thinks her as his second mother'', I told him the truth.

Nick looked shocked.

''You know he always says he likes me but never even once, he told me that he loves me'', I smile weakly. ''now I know'', I turned to see Nick. ''Because Maya will always be his love no matter how many women cross his life'', standing up, I let a heavy sigh. I saw Marlene in the hallway; giving a pitying look.

''As I said, I've gone through things like this so I can overcome it after a couple of days. That's how I am. Moreover, we are not in a serious relationship. And thus, it's a relief for me. Me and him.... No, it won't work out ever. So, leave your worries...'', saying that, I walked upstairs.

Soon after I enter my room, I close the door; dragging myself down. Grabbing my chest, I cried silently. I shouldn't expect a word called love. I supposed to avoid him from the beginning.

Now it's my fault, isn't it?

After some days, when I was walking in the park alone, I saw Chris and Maya who are walking together while laughing happily. Trust me, she's really a beautiful woman and I won't even at the same level as her.

''Hey Chris'', I greeted him from behind.

Chris turns back and looked shocked seeing me; like he didn't expect my appearance.

''H...Hey'', he said casually. ''Umm... you are here?'', he asked me hesitantly.

''Yeah... I need to meet my friend. That's why'', I lied.

''your friend Chris?'', Maya asked as she turns to me. I guess she didn't realize that I'm the one who has been with him.

''Yes'', Chris fake a smile.

''Hi, I'm Maya'', she showed her hand.

''Janessa. Nice to meet you'', I smile as I grab my hand. ''I take leave first'', saying that, I walk out from them. 

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