LIFE I CHOOSE

IT HURTS SO MUCH

"What do you want me to do?. She clearly hates me", Karan answered sadly. Sophia felt bad for him and give him confidence, she told him; "she doesn't hate you and Miles is only a good friend". However what are you willing to do or to sacrifice in order to get her back and that is if you really love her. Karan laughed sadly at her statement and told her how she's only saying this to make him feel better but she better than anyone knows that truth that she hates and deteste him.
"If that's what you think, do you blame her? The hate you say she feels for you is justified isn't it so?, I will be honest with you. You hurt her so much and you've go no idea how much you had damaged her then. I was there to pick up the pieces, when she cried herself to sleep, when the nausea kicked in. I was there and still is. I know what you did to her and its something I wouldn't even wish for my enemy however believe me when I say that she doesn't hate you, do you know why? It's because I know her better anyone", Sophia told him.
Karan didn't say anything but got hold of an expensive bottle of scorch that was placed on the table. He opened it and took it from the bottle didn't bother to drink from the glass. He drank like a half of it and this worried both Sophia and Dianne. They didn't want him to get drank from here and if Preeta found out, she would be pissed.

Dianne came and tried to take bottle from him but he didn't let go. "What do you think your doing?", Dianne asked angrily. "This is good and besides I need something to ease this pain am feeling right now", Karan said pointing at his heart. "None of you know how it feels like, how I have felt these past years. They've been the worst times of my life because it's my fault i lost the only shinning star of my life; my babydoll. And now she's here but it's feels like she's so far away and I can't reach her; loving and desiring her but can't touch her. I admit I hurt and humiliated her but every time I did that; I hurt as much. I never wanted to see her get hurt or cry but I did what I didn't want others to do to her and I regret it; and it hurts every time. I let myself get manipulated and my anger got the best of me because I thought she betrayed me. Dianne and Sophia could see that it was the alcohol making him talk and they decided to listen to whatever he wanted to lay out maybe he would feel better. Sophia thought that maybe they should call one of his brothers to take him. With him blabbering she whispered to Dianne that it wasn't right because whatever he was saying they were invading his privacy and Preeta's secrets but Dianne played it down saying. He needs to let it all out and besides they needed to know how much he loves their friend. And they decided to keep quiet as Karan kept talking in his induced state.

When they turned to look at him, he now had tears in his eyes; they hoped maybe by letting it all out would help him ease whatever pain he was feeling. He laughed and asked "do you know why I married her?", I bet no one knew my motive. To others they thought it was revenge because that's what I told them however the truth is that I was jealousy and couldn't stand it, seeing her married to any man. Especially not that idiot Prithvi. I once accused her of being interested in my brother Rishabh. Do you know how funny it would've turned out to be. Brothers being in love with the same girl but my imagination was wrong however i wouldn't know what could've happened; had it turned out to be through. That revelation surprised the girls especially Sophia. "Marriage wasn't something I believed in but for her I risked my principles. I had many girl friends but meeting her changed everything for me because I found her different from other girls yet she used to annoy me to the core but that didn't change my admiration towards her and even the hate I felt didn't change anything. I did what I did because I was feeling to much. Seeking her cry or hurt made me feel emotional, I didn't want to see those tears because she's that special but I hate myself for hurting her like I did", he said sadly. "Of course you do", Sophia said sadly. Looking at Karan made her feel sorry for him. She wondered how her friend must be feeling. Life was so unfair. Here are two people that love each other but are also very distant to each other.