Out Of Control

Chapter 10 - Everybody Leaves

Chapter 10 - Everybody Leaves

~ Nikki's POV ~

"I'm sorry, Nikki. It's only for a week or two and then I'll be back, I promise." Jace placed his hands on the side of my arms.

There were so many thoughts racing in my mind and I couldn't react. I opened my mouth to say something, anything, but my mouth just stayed wide open as if I was waiting for someone to feed me. That's how stupid I felt and looked.

I should've seen this coming. The fact that I thought Jace was different from the rest left me dumbfounded. In fact, Jace was just like any other person that I've ever met. Just like my parents, Julie, Ethan, my old friends, every person that I ever got close to. I practically gave Jace an invitation to break my heart all over again.

I felt someone shake my shoulder and I looked up from the ground. Jace was searching my face for a response while Hailey, Kyle and Liam had their eyes fixed on me with a sorry expression.

Seriously, I thought, people have to stop pitying me.

"Nikki, I will come back." Jace was attempting to reassure me.

"No, you won't." I said, blandly. "You won't. Nobody else ever did and you won't either."

With that said, I tried to push past him but he blocked my path. "I'm not like everybody else. You should know that by now."

"I know what you're like, Jace." I looked him in the eyes for the first time tonight. "Do what you have to do, don't let me hold you back." m

Jace's shoulders noticeably slunk and his hazel eyes were filled with uncertainty, regret and sadness.

I made my was toward my room and shut the door. I didn't slam it, I just shut it - like I usually would. I pulled my hair out of the tight ponytail it had been in for the past three and a half hours and collapsed on the bed. My mind and body wasn't able to muster up the strength to even cry. Maybe I I've have enough disappointments to be the least bit upset about this.

Half of me hated myself for putting so much trust into someone that I barely knew. The other half, however, told me that Jace would be back and I had no reason to be worried. Images flashed through my head of the past three days. My mind was filled with thoughts of his dark brown hair, his hazel eyes, his perfectly toned body, his smooth voice, and most importantly, his personality. The fact that he was curious to know about my story and was eager to help me made me feel kind of warm and fuzzy inside.

Oh no, I'm turning into one of those desperate and clingy girls! My subconscious informed me.

I smiled, picturing Jace's face in my head and remembering the time we had shared in just a few days. He could have any girl he wanted, but he wasn't that sort of guy. Jace had told me that he had changed as the years past and the fact that he had grown so close to me made me feel special.

My mind tried to process what these feelings were. I had never felt this way before - not with any guy. A few seconds later, it hit me.

I liked Jace. I liked Jace a lot.

A stupid grin made its way on my face. For a minute I forgot all the negative things and instantly felt like the happiest person alive.

However, that happiness faded as I heard a knock on the bedroom door and reality ruined my life. Jace was leaving. He couldn't babysit me for the rest of his life, and I had no right to hold him back. I just couldn't help but feel disappointed - not disappointed in Jace, but in myself. I had no such quality that makes someone want to stay with me.

There was another knock and whoever was at the door let themselves in, not bothering to wait for a response.

Without looking to see who had entered, I turned my backside to the door and covered my face with a pillow. "Go away!" I groaned.