The Art Of Letting Go

Kabanta 27

Kabanata 27

Nuts

The last period has come to an end. Nag yaya si Kharlah na sabay-sabay kaming uuwi ngunit nag pa iwan ako dahil kailangan pa namin mag usap ni Alston. I checked my inbox and he doesn't reply again. I'm suddenly feeling anxious whether he'll meet me or not. Now I'm starting to doubt if he has read my messages. Or if he does, it looks like he doesn't care and decided to ignore my messages, decided to ignore me....again.

"Serbi, sigurado ka ba na hindi ka sasabay sa amin?" Kristen asked for the ninth time.

"Hindi nga. Kailangan pa namin mag usap ni Alston," sagot ko.

She glanced at her wristwatch. "It's already five. Do you think he'll come?"

I narrowed my eyes on her. "This is your idea, Kris. You told me to explain to him."

"I know but can't you do that tomorrow?"

No, it can't wait for tomorrow. I must speak to him now. My heart won't let me and I doubt if I'll be able to sleep tonight. Siguradong mag o-overthink lamang ako.

"Why don't you accompany me to their building?" I asked, she wasn't going home yet.

"Bukas na lang kasi, Serbi. Besides, Jensen is already waiting for you. Sabay kayong uuwi ngayon 'di ba?" Paalala niya sa akin.

Oo nga pala, muntik ko ng makalimutan. My mother strictly told me to go home with Jensen. I'm so torn right now. I badly wanted to talk with Alston but I know that Kristen is right. I have to go home now or my parents would surely ground me. Kristen walked me to the parking lot. Sakto at dumating na rin ang sundo niya. I bid her goodbye before turning to Jensen.

He was leaning on his car with his arms around his chest. I felt guilty for making him wait like this. I'm being such an inconvenience for him.

"Hey, kanina ka pa ba?" I asked, feeling guilty.

He looked up and smiled at me. "It's fine," he answered.

"I'm sorry. May hinintay pa kasi kami ni Kris," I explained.

"May gagawin ka pa ba?" He asked.

I looked at my phone to check if he has replied but there's none. Disappointed filled me. He's not talking to me and he's not coming. Humarap ako kay Jensen at akmang mag sasalita nang biglang mag-ring ang phone ko. My eyes widened when I saw his name flash on my screen.

"Wait lang," sabi ko kay Jensen at tumango lang siya.

Lumayo ako ng bahagya para hindi niya ako marinig bago ko sinagot ang tawag. Nakaramdam ako ng kaba at tuwa. "Hello?" I nervously asked.

"I'm sorry I can't go," he said in a low voice.

Hearing his voice makes me miss him more. "Ah, gan'on ba? Ayos lang. Sa susunod na lang."

"Okay. Don't wait for me. Go home."

"Sige, bye."

Pinatay ko agad ang tawag. I can't believe this. He called just to say that? Gaano ba siya ka-busy para hindi makapunta? A minute or two won't hurt right? I just wanted to explain and clear things out.

I turned my phone off for the whole night. Mabuti na lang at hindi nag tanong si Jensen kung sino ang tumawag. After he dropped me home, he stayed for dinner. My mother insisted in making him stay for supper. Hindi na bago sa amin iyon. Like I said, madalas siya noon dito. Lalo na noong mga bata pa kami. Pag katapos ng maikling kwentuhan ay umuwi na siya. I'm starting to feel bad towards Jensen. I should try to be nicer to him. He's my best friend and he helped me many times.