Why the villainess ran away

I reincarnated into the body of Lilith Ekhilten, a cruel villainess from the reverse harem novel "The lady's roses". In the novel, she committed unforgivable acts of kidnapping the female lead,attempting to poison, and slavery and finally died by the hands of the second ml.After trying everything to get back home(yes, even dying) I accepted my unfortunate fate and tried to improve things, but my family or fiancé kept killing me. This is my 7th life in which I decided to finally run away and leave everything behind. I just want to rest, so why does everyone keep pestering me?

( I post every Sunday usually but it really depends)