ashton mackenzie
Harry:
what is your all time favorite song?
Me:
i can't pick just one
Harry:
if you had to?
Me:
.....
idk it changes like every day
Harry:
well what is it today?
Me:
i've really been liking taylor swift's new album evermore. i've been listening to it nonstop.
Harry:
well which song is your favorite?
Me:
i can't pick just one
Harry:
wow you sure do suck at decisions
Me:
sjchsudh i really do
whats your favorite song?
Harry:
it's a secret.
Me:
is that the name or is it actually a secret?
Harry:
nope. it's actually a secret.
Me:
why's that?
Harry:
no reason
Me:
interesting.
can you give me a clue?
Harry:
what kind of clue?
Me:
idk like what is it about or what genre is it?
Harry:
it actually kind of reminds me of you in a way
Me:
how so?
Harry:
that's also a secret, darling.
Me:
you're no fun
That's really where we left the conversation off earlier today. Harry never responded, though he is going to be here soon to give me a ride to the club we are supposed to be going to tonight.
I've changed my outfit four times.
God, of course the night I have fucking plans my brain decides to be an insecure mess of flaws and disgust.
Every time I put on an outfit that I like, I stare at myself in the mirror until I absolutely despise it.
I'm so pissed because I have so many cute clothes, but my anxiety never lets me fucking wear them.
Right now I'm in just a simple, tight, black, spaghetti strap dress that's a lot shorter than anything I usually wear.
And maybe I'm trying to get some attention by wearing this. And maybe that attention is from the person who is going to be here in ten minutes, I don't know.
It sounds dumb but I know that my personality is too boring and my face is too unappealing to get attention, so they way I know to get it is with my body, whether I'm feeling insecure about it or not. I know just a little cleavage is enough to get what I want.
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antidote | h.s.
Fanfiction| lovin' you's the antidote |. "Is this your favorite song today?" I ask her while the chorus plays out. "Yeah, I really like this album," she says simply, looking out the windshield. I already really loved this song, but I think I love it a whol...
