The damaged brains

Chapter 16 - Gone .

 
 
I thought that I had lost my mother , and I believed  it to be my fault . How stupid and careless was I ! Why had I ever said those words to her , I will never forgive myself .

Ian tilted her head back looking and feeling for breath , I felt numb and I couldnt move , I just crossed my heart and prayed for her while tears fell down my cheeks down the floor like a waterfall .

Ian's hands were pushed firmly downwards in the middle of my mother's chest and then he released his hands and again did the same giving her chest compressions . He stopped after a while , he seemed like someone who had lost hope . And I too stopped breathing and the earth stopped turning , no sound was heard but the pounding of my ill-fated sinned heart . Grey hadnt realize it yet , he kept looking at Ian with begging eyes , he sill had hope , and I wished if I too had little bit of it ..

" No , this is not happening ." Mr Andrew on the other side couldn't process the fact that she was gone .. she was dead . He kept shaking her shoulders and calling for her name .

" Lilly .. Wake up ! You can't leave me now . " his heart was broken , I realised how much love he had for her , and I clearly understand my father's jealousy now .. now that it's too late .

He wiped his tears away in one second , then he leaned down to her face and covered her mouth tightly with his , I didn't understand what was he doing . Grey fell on the ground , his knees werent strong enough to hold his weight , he burried his head in between his hands and sobbed and so did I .

Mr Andrew pinched my mom's nose closed , he was giving her the  CPR .. none of us had the strengh to have a flame of hope , but him .

He kept her head lifted and her head tilted , then he gave her two rescue breaths , each one rested about a second , and he made her chest rise . She wasnt breathing .

We all waited for him to surrender and accept the fact that he cant bring her back to life , it was so hard for me to see her quiet still laying on the floor not breathing , a dead corpse . It was the worst feeling ever .

He gave her two more rescue breaths , the first one lasted longer this time . .She moved .

I couldnt believe my eyes .. my mother was still alife ! She exhaled a long breath slowly moving her head up . Mr Andrew set a cry of joy and he held her tight in his arms . Then he asked Ian to help him put her on her bed , and they did it gently like they were holding an egg , I just stood there like a status not being able to move nor to speak .

Grey was still wandering in his misery , he didn't realise that she was still breathing and she was still alife .

I woke him up from his sadness by shaking his shoulders , I was speechless and my throat felt dry , no word left my mouth .

My brother and I sat on the side of the bed where my mom layed , she barely could manage to open her eyes and look at us , she looked so weak .. she looked dead .

" Im sorry mom ..." I said , tears falling down my cheeks forbiding me from saying another word . I cried like a baby .

She tried her best to reach my hand , her hand was freezing , she couldnt say a word but she faintly smiled at me and tapped on my hand .

Then once again she closed her eyes , and lost her consiousness .