The damaged brains

Chapter 18 - Fatal Silence .

   Since the begining of this chaos , I have been receiving the worst kind of news . And I never had enough time to grieve any , my mother had just lost her baby .. our unborn beloved brother was dead .

The baby was the only thing that had left from my father , he wasnt exactly the perfect husband but he was the perfect father .. for us he was .

I was worried about my mother , it was the news that got her in tears earlier , my dear poor mother. I wanted to see her more than anything in the world .

Grey rushed outisde trying not to let anyone see his tears , yet he failed . We all have seen his pain .

I tried to follow him but Cassandra was faster than me , I was glad he has a friend who got  his back .

I held my sadness for some other time , I had to be strong for my mom . Ian stopped me as I tried to walk inside .

" She  needs to rest .. and so do you ."

" Can't I just see her ? It will be quick I promise !" I begged him , I was still mad at him for hiding my mother's infection from me .

" She's not sober yet , please Emma .. come with me ."

He took my hand and I let go , he once again took it and forced me to walk with him upstairs .

We both were quiet inside Ian's bedroom , my mind wasn't clear and I didn't know what to think .

" She'll be fine .. " He took both my hands in his and gently rubbed the back of my hands with his palms .

Ian in the middle of all this chaos has been my shelter , somewhere I can go to rest . He was my home .

" Does the injection that my mom took has anything to do with the baby's deah ? " . If so than my father sadly and in a way was the responsible one and he was the one to blame even if he was gone .

" I believe , but your mother is over the age of 35 and a miscarriage was likely to happen to her because of her health conditions , yet her infection was fatal to the baby . " I tried not to hate my father for he had done , but he messed up so bad .

" I'll get you something to eat , then you need to rest and have some good day sleep ." Wasn't he the sweetest.

" No , Im not hungry .. I'll take a shower than I will wait for my mom to wake up ."

" Have some rest baby .. I will wake you up if anything happens ." I was exhausted , I fell asleep even before I take a shower .

" Hey " Ian's cold hand on my forehead woke me up , I jumped out of my bed . I had a nightmare about my mother being shot dead , and it was still effecting me .

" It's okey .. it's okey . " I sat next to him on the side of the bed , his tight hug made me feel safe again , the hug lasted longer than usual and he didnt let go .

" I just wanted you to know that I love you , and I will always be by your side ! ." He held my face with his hands , there was something in his eyes , he was acting weird .

" Is my mother okey ? "

" Yes , she's not up yet .. you should go back to sleep yourself . Umm , I just missed you and I wanted to kiss you ."  He gave me the cute charming eyes of his and I smiled at him allowing his lips to meet mine , it was a long passionate kiss .

" You're not mad at me right ? "

" We'll see ." I tried to tease him , he smiled and watched me as I layed on the bed again and he sat there until I fell asleep .

I woke up in the middle of the night , there was no one in the room with me and the place was so quiet ,I wondered where Ian was .

I went downstairs to check on my mom , the light was on . I knocked and Unt Laura's voice asked me to come inside .

" Hey .. " I smiled at my mom , she looked much better than earlier .

" How do you feel ? " I asked holding her hand tight .

" Much better , how are you sweetie ? ."

I didn't want to show her my weakness , but I couldnt hold myself from hugging her .

" Oh darling .. dont cry , everything will be okey . Im here now "

" Im sorry mom .." Tears were running down my cheek . I knew that my appology wouldnt change the way I acted earlier .

" I am here now baby .. Im here now . " Her words warmed the cold spirit that grew in me the last days .

I made sure she was okey , and I made sure not to talk about the lost baby , I didn't want her to be sad . Unt Laura appologized leaving the two of us .

After a while my mom fell asleep , she looked healthier than before . That made me feel better , I quietly left the room and closed the door . I wanted to find Ian , but he wasnt anywhere to be found , not even in the garden .

Unt Laura was sleeping in the room next to my mom's . I knocked at her door as a final solution , maybe she knew where Ian was .. Mr Andrew and Grey nor Cassandra was at the house .

" Unt Laura , Can I come in please ? "

" Yes my dear ."

" I really am sorry if I woke you up , umm " I hesitated walking inside .

" Do you happen to know where Ian is ? "

Her eyes were wide open .

" Oh ! Dont you know ? " I was lost .. know what , I didnt say anything and instead I waited for her to continue .

The front door's keys turned making a noise , Grey and Cassandra got inside and closed the door .

" Where have you been ? " I asked .

" In the backyard , we needed some fresh air ." Cassandra replied smiling , she sounded sweet .

" Do you guys know where Ian is ?." They gave me the same look Unt Laura had just give me , a fatal silence followed .