The damaged brains

Chapter 35 - A light.

**** two weeks later ***

15 days and we hadn't seen any sign yet , they started to lose hope . I believed I was the only one left with faith in me .

The cottage in which we took refugee had a shingle siding , and from one side it overlooked the city , from time to time I sat there at the chair in the little front porch and observed the abondoned city hoping that maybe one day we see a move of any human being but there wasn't any , oddly even the infected people were all gone . And the whole planet was left to us alone .

From the two small window flancking the cottage's back door a large portion of the ocean was visible , and at night we saw nothing but complete darkness , I thought if there was to be any sign of life in the far island or even in the middle of the ocean we could easily see it under the so little stars's light .

Mr Andrew had a bright idea of leaving the car's light always lit on at night , with the light heading toward the ocean any one from the other side .. if there was any would absolutly see it , and they could tell that we were still there waiting for them .

Inside the cottage there was a well-stocked kitchenette with a small dining table standing in the middle of it , at night we all gathered by the brick shimney , not in need of its warmth but for its light , we always gathered loose wood to set the fire when the sun sank beneath the horizon and about the food we had plenty of fresh fruits and vegetables from the overgrown gardens down the hill , and we would be able to forade for food months after months without a need .

On the 15th evening , and as usual we all gathered around the chimney after dinner , Kevin and Enana were in bed allready .. and Unt Laura and I had made tea with some down-to-earth home made cookies .

I took my seat besides Ian as usual , and everyone got lost in his own mind .

" Umm .. " Jack broke the silent at last , he appearantly had something to say , I knew what he had to say and honestly I was affraid of it and I'd been egnoring the inevitable for the past last week .

We've all agreed to move out of the cottage after a week at first , I convinced them to stay longer in the sake of my brother and they agreed to delay for one more week .

" You guys know we should be moving , remember what happened at the Refugees's Guard , they're probably watching us right now and waiting for a chance to burn us all to the stick . " The thought of being burned to death made my stomach flip and I almost threw up .

" But can't you stay for another week ? Please .. I know they will be back ! I know they're still alive !. " Everyone stared at me like I was insane , and Ian started to get worried about my mental health .. I could see that in his eyes , yet I did not care , I know how strong my instinct was and I trusted my guts .. Grey was still alive and he would be back .

" We're moving tomorrow morning ." Mr Andrew's words fell on me like thunder , they all had made their minds and I was the last person to know .

Everyone went quiet again as if they all agreed to leave by the first light in the morning , I didn't know what else to say to convince them to stay but I wasn't going to .

After so many innumerable fluttering thoughts , as a body perfectly devided of sentiment I finally got back to myself , I stood up , faced Ian at first and then facing them all I made my decision .

" I will not leave with you .. " that wasn't supposed to be surprising news but oddly they all were perplexed and seemed worried about me .

" Emma , Can we talk outside ? . " Ian's voice was dead serious .

" You're leading yourself to an inevitable death kiddo . " Jack said , while the other two kept staring at me like I was out of my damned mind .

Stepping outside the cottage Ian and I sat at the grass looking at the far distant horizon above the ocean.

" We have a plan Emma , and this place isn't safe anymore .. it might appear so but it is not , we all thought the Refugees's Guard was the safest place on earth and look at it now , nothing but chaos and ashes .. " I sensed that he was about to cry .

" Ian you have to believe me ! Please ! I know so .. we just have to wait for them to come back , and then we can follow the others where ever they go ."

" How ! " He shouted at me , I've always hated him for screaming at me , I was a peacefull creature and people rising their voices at me always drove me insane .

" Don't yell at me Ian ! "

" Your missing the whole point ! " He lowered his tone once again.

"We should stick together and just follow the plan . "

" What plan haa ? So you all decided to leave without letting me know and you guys made a plan which appearatly I wasn't involved to know , if we're going to stick together as you said Ian we need to keep no secrets and absolutly involve everyone in making such a big desicion ."

" You're right .. I'll tell you everything , just listen carefully okey ? Seriously Em you have to let the idea of staying at the cottage out of your mind . "

I didn't give him any sign of approvale .

" We're planning to visit every major city at the north searching for refugees ... "

" Why the north ? " I interrupted him .

" It's the most likely place to find survivors , it had once contained a huge population and that increases the odds that maybe a small number had survived.. "

" Ian . " I interrupted him once again .

" Wandering about major cities and randomly searching for survivors for brief time wouldn't help much , even if you guys happen to find them .. then what ? Aren't we all doomed to die , sooner or later we all will be dead Ian and you know that for sure .." I paused for a breath then went on .

" I'd rather die in my brother's company than dying with strangers . " I cutt short all what had been going in my mind .

" We won't be driving randomly from city to city Em , we'll stay put in one metropolis scouring every neighborhood and suburb , this will give us both time to catch our breath and the power to move freely without having to be affraid of the army .. "

Ian's voice was suddenly shut from my brain , breath ran out of my lungs as I saw a fainting light at the line where the ocean met the far island , my heart beats raised and I wanted to shout but no matter how hard I tried , I was frozen and my throat felt so dry .

I squeezed Ian's arm tightly under my hand .

" You see that ! " I finally managed to whisper to Ian with excitement.

" See what ? " He asked .

" There " I pointed with my finger where the gray pacific ocean stretched away to the horizon .

We waited for seconds , nothing was visible .. maybe I was out of my mind after all .

Ian stood on his feet to take leave .

" Let's get inside , you need to sleep .."

" There Ian .. I knew it !!! ". I screamed with all my force while a tiny light flashed on and off sending a signal whose sourse could be only human , could be only my dear beloved brother .