Anyone But Her

Seeing Red

Stiles sat in his jeep for a minute before entering the house. His head felt like it was on fire. He made sure to wipe away any tears he had and take a minute to breathe it would be hell if he walked in there looking this much of a mess. Just thinking about Lydia hurt him. She wouldn't even know that he knows. Everything just felt so shit. Why couldn't good things happen to good people too? He took one last breath before hopping out the car. His knuckles had a slight bruise on them from when he hit the steering wheel but he couldn't care less at the moment.

He opened the front door, noticing his mum and dad sat down watching tv. "Stiles?! Where have you been? It's been over an hour." Mrs Whittmore said looking up to him. He put on a fake smile. "Oh nowhere really just went to go see Scott for a bit..w-we have some homework due soon!" He said lying through his teeth and with a slight nod from his mum he headed upstairs. He could hear Jackson talking on the phone to someone obnoxiously as he walked past his door before heading up the next flight of stairs to his room. Once entering, he laid down face first on his bed and sighed heavily. But before he could do anything there was a quiet knock at his door. He got up slowly in frustration and answered it to see Lydia stood there was a smile on -her face.

"Where have you been I sent you loads of texts! Are you okay? You don't look great...oh no what happened??" Lydia question as she noticed his knuckles and she tried to hold his hand but he pushed her away. She gave him an odd look as she closed the door behind her. Stiles looked mad, furious in fact, his eyes were squinted and he had a scowl on his face not once meeting her eyes. When she got closer to him he took a step back from her. Shock and confusion filled her face. "Stiles what's the matter? What happened?" She asked him slowly. "Please tell me." She whined. Stiles took a deep breath and this time looked her dead in the eyes, tears threatening to leave his eyes.

"Oh stop like you care." He spat at her before taking a few step away towards his bed. Lydia was speechless. "W-what? Of course I care Stiles I care about y-" Stiles quickly cut her off. "Please. Stop. Just stop lying. I'm done with it." He retorted nastily before starting to pace around his room. Lydia's eyes were wide with shock. "What? I'm not lying. What are you talking about? Please just tell me!" She pleaded with him as tears begun to flood her eyes. "I know now, you can drop the act. I know you're just using me cause you're bored. How was I so stupid to to actually think that you'd chose me over fucking Mr Perfect down there." He retorted angrily, again refusing to look at her and looking at the floor.

"What NO! Stiles No that's not true. Who told you that??!" She cried back at him, holding her arms out to get him to stop pacing but he pushed past her. "What do you mean? Of course it is you've literally told half the school by now about how much of a loser I am and that I'm 'bad in bed'.." he raised his hands to air quote in frustration. "...No I get it Lydia I'm sorry I was such a big fucking joke to you and I do apologise for being bad and all it was only just MY FIRST TIME!" He yelled in anger as he turned to face her. He was so angry. How could he have been so stupid. She'd made him look like an idiot, and to say that he was in love with her and wanted to spend his life with her? What a joke. How could he have let her take his virginity? When Everyone was just laughing at him behind his back.

"No no I never said that! STOP. I have never told anyone apart from Allison and she hasn't told anyone. She just wouldn't. I do care about you like a lot...more than anybody I know!" She shouted back at him trying to contain frustration and sadness. What the fuck had happened? Who had told him all these lies? It can't have been Jackson he doesn't even know. "Lydia. Why just why? Honestly? I know I was an ass to you before but I told you why I did that...but I didn't realise that I was such a big fucking joke to you! Wow I must have been so lame for you to pretend to like me. I must have been so easy for you to get me into bed. I should have seen the signs...I must have known that a girl this hot would never choose such a dork and especially you kept telling me that you'd tell Jackson but you never did that should have been my first clue. Wow I can't believe how stupid I was." He rambled in frustration before sitting down on the edge of his bed with his head in his hands.

Lydia cried uncontrollably as she tried to get him to listen but he ignored her. None of it was true. How could he think like this? She quickly paced over to him and sat next to him trying to get her to look at him. "Stiles please. None of this is true I swear-I would never-I don't understand-I..." she kept stumbling over her words as she struggled to explain it to him in-between cries, but he was done listening. "No Lydia you know what? I'm so sorry I was such a disappointment to you. I'm sorry that you had to sleep with 'the dork' just for some fun...and I'm sorry that I fell for it. Don't worry I'll pretend that I don't know you I wouldn't want to ruin your precious reputation in school now do I? You are such a bitch, I can't believe I thought you liked me. Just please...leave me the fuck alone." He spoke more softly now but it was full of sadness as she saw tears fall through his hands and onto his sweatpants.

Lydia knew she couldn't reason with him. He was done listening. Her heart felt like it had been shattered across the floor in front of her. She stood up shakily and made her way out his room. "Okay but know this..I cherished every fucking moment we had together and I don't even care if you don't believe me but I told nobody nothing. You was perfect and I care about you so fucking much and if you're willing to believe some randomer over me then...I guess there really is no hope." She said solemnly as she slammed the door behind her. Tears streaming down her face. Fuck. What even happened? She sat on the step for awhile trying to stop crying before she went back to Jackson but she just couldn't. Everything hurt. It's like her world had just crumbled around her. There was no point in anything anymore.