Let's Rock Today (A 5SOS fan fiction)

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(Lycia's POV)

6 days. For 6 days I've been sitting in my room at Lyric's house feeling like shit. He made me feel worthless. I'm nothing now. I don't want a person to define my worth, but damn. What he did, I don't know if I could forgive. All I could think was, he promised me.

I got a lot of texts from him.

Calum: so yoy can anqwer Detrk np problen bur when I tezt yoi, tou wanma ignore mw? Ok tem
Calum: I nejds you im sowary
Calum: Im v drink
*read at 11:42 a.m.*
Calum: I miss you
*read at 12:17 p.m.*

"Seriously?!" Lyric freaked out when i showed her. "It's the fucking morning. Asshole. Hold on." She picked up her phone and called him.

I heard his voice muffled in the phone and I almost burst into tears at the sound.

"You miss her? Get your ass up and sober and come over here. Because it sure doesn't seem like it now and it sure as fuck didn't seem like it when you stuck your tongue down that bitch's fucking throat....what? You're actually gonna do it? Good." She hung up angrily and looked at me. "What?"

"I don't want to see him! Are you crazy woman?" I shouted, feeling another set of tears coming on.

"Woah woah woah? What's happening?" Ashton stormed in, concerned as ever.

"She fucking called him!" I started pacing. "I can't even think about him without having a mental breakdown, how am I supposed to look at him?!"

"Well...I actually called him earlier too..." Ashton trailed off. "But only because nobody has seen him, sober at least. And I hate seeing...this happen."

I grumbled, "Fine. At least let me shower or something."

They walked out of the room and I found clothes I could not look like a total wreck in. I showered quickly and sat in my bed, braiding my hair.

I'm not good enough and that kills me. It's my fault that this is happening. If I just ignored Derek this wouldn't happen. I wouldn't have wasted a week doing absolutely nothing. I looked in the mirror for the first time in that week and my heart dropped. My eyes were sunken in and had bags around them. I had lost a couple pounds significantly because of the lack of eating. I looked like a walking corpse. M

I knew he wouldn't even be completely sober when he got over here, and I'm afraid that'll start something. I've only fought with him over dumb things, nothing real. And this felt too real. I suddenly couldn't breathe and I was shaking uncontrollably. I fell to the ground with a thud and within a second, Lyric was in the room and getting me up onto the bed two feet away. I felt like I needed to vomit. I gagged up but nothing happened, from the lack of eating. My mouth was extremely dry and she leaped to get me water. I sat there for what seemed like forever before I was summoned to the backyard. They didn't want me near anything in case I wanted to chuck something at his head.

I looked at the backyard and saw him sitting on a stool with a guitar by his side. Why the fuck did he need that? As he heard me enter the area, his head jerked up to look at me. Third time, the third time I've looked him in the eyes. They looked similar to mine, sunken in and dark, but his very bloodshot. He looked insane and as I approached he reeked of smoke and alcohol.

My first words to him were harsh, "How did you even get here?"

He looked like he'd just been punched in the face. "Mali drove me. Alicia, please let me make it up to you. I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I didn't...." He trailed off and went to punch the patio table. He sucked in a breath, trying not to cry, and I knew it. I knew him all too well and I couldn't even bring myself to think of his name. "I fucked up. I let that girl dance on me and kiss me."