Let's Rock Today (A 5SOS fan fiction)

7 Things

(Lycia's POV)

"Ok. Well then I will tell you. I don't know what overcame me. Derek came up multiple times in the last month, you didn't ignore him or even tell him not to flirt with you. It..made me angry..jealous. All I wanted was you and you kept talking to him. I felt abandoned. Then, I kept slamming drink after drink because I thought it would make me less angry. Honestly, I don't even remember kissing the girl. I remember someone pulling me out of the crowd and seeing you run out. I remember that whole night except that one instance and it kills me. I never wanted to hurt you." His voice cracked and broke. What do I say?

"No one knows what happened between him and I, I never told either of our families what he had done. I still have to be civil with him but that's it. God Calum I was singing a fucking song for you! Just you! Im here, in Australia with you, not in America. He might pop up for the rest of my life and it doesn't mean I want him there either. Why the fuck would I ever want him in my life again after everything he did to me? All those nights of talking in my sleep and I put my best friends through it too, but I loved you Calum and it just happened again. What am I supposed to do? Move past it and be okay?" I was shouting now and my face was flaming red.

He faltered. "Loved? Past tense?"

"Oh my god! Is that all you care about? Please consider what you've done to me. I don't know. I don't know if I still love you. I went..I'm going through hell." I ran my hands through my hair. Angry tears streaked my cheeks as usual. My emotions never failed to betray me.

"Lycia, I'm pathetically in love with you. I look at you and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you. "

"You have a hilarious way of showing it." I wiped my eyes. "Listen, it's late and I've got band stuff to do tomorrow."

"Okay, you don't need to literally kick me out this time." He nodded and ducked out.

Ashton and Lyric got home shortly after Calum left and we watched a movie with the girls who stuck around so we can get ready for our acoustic gig tomorrow.

*next morning*

The house was all a buzz at 7 am. We had our managers over who brought over make over people and camera people and the lot. I'm not sure why, it's only a small gig. We were the ones who planned it, too. It suddenly got big and moved to a bigger venue at an outdoor amphitheater instead of a park.

We sat in one of the guest's rooms with big lights beaming down and our hair getting done. Lyric was taking selfies with the stylist and tweeting a bunch per usual. Daisy and Tasia were dancing around, waiting to get there hair done.

"SING THE FIRST LYRICS YOU THINK OF!!" Lyric screamed as she took a video of me, half of my hair was being waterfall braided.

"Shit? What?" She startled me and my hair was lightly yanked.

"Lyrics. Go. Now."

I belted out, "WHO WILL FIX ME NOOOWW? DIVE IN WHEN IM DOOOOOWNNN SAVE ME FROM MYSEEELLFF DON'T LET ME DROOWWNNNN!!" She ended the video and posted it on our band account. "Your turn." I laughed, pointing my phone at her this time.

"AUSSIE RAP WILL NEVER DIE-"

Tasia cut her off, "Don't you dare! I have to hear that shit all the time! We all do!"

"What do you hear all the time?" Ashton wandered in and kissed Lyric on the cheek. She smiled and held his hand as we kept talking.

"Your aussie rap shit, Irwin." Daisy rolled her eyes and popped her gum.

Lyric and I finally were done with hair and sat down on the guest bed with Ashton. I felt like a complete third wheel because he was draped over her abd kissing her face and I was sitting by myself; then again she mostly talked to me and the girls unless Ash spoke up. I loved that about Lyric, she can still spend time with everyone without trying to exclude the others.