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༻ bro stop ranting on wattpad and go seek help ༺

i know this isn't an update that you probably would've wanted but i need to ask this

i'm currently in the middle of a crying session and i need to ask

so i have a hard time understanding social cues, jokes, and especially sarcasm

i often ask people if their serious or sarcastic since pretty much 100% of the time i cant tell

i hate asking

they always make me feel so stupid

they yell at me for asking

i tend to have a problem interrupting people

i don't mean to do it

if i could control it i very much would

it's not that i'm unfunny

it's not that im boring

i just can't understand jokes all the time

i need to ask you what you mean

but please don't react negatively

please just tell me

when you make me guess it stresses me out. it makes me feel bad.

when i ask if your serious or joking you call me stupid, or fight back the urge to

please don't call me stupid anymore

it hurts

i already have a hard time concentrating and understanding academic things

i don't need you making me feel worse

by the way! i'm not talking to you as the reader in this little vent above. when i use "you" i'm meaning my sister and some of my friends. /gen

if anyone can answer this that would great: does this mean anything neurotypically? or is it just that my brain is wired weird and has changed a bit due to trauma? it would be really nice to know. ty :) /gen ❤️