♡✧𝙝𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙭 𝙝𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙣𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙚✧♡

༻ bro i was a sad sack of shit ༺

so, here's your trigger warning. this is a vent. it involves depression, violent events that happened in 2020, suicidal thoughts, self deprecating behavior and speech, yelling, traumatic experiences, comparing and belittling trauma, death, feelings of incredible guilt, overthinking

by the way. this is a vent. just so you know. tonight is shit. i hate it.

i shouldnt be thinking about my mental health now, there are more important things to worry about. :)

i don't need a mental break, i'm just making excuses. :)

i don't know where to start, i don't know when it will end. :)

i'm done having opinions. :)

i do not wish to share them. :)

sharing them has only led me into despair :)

everything is overwhelming. :)

what's new today? :)

breaking news: black man shot, muslim woman hatecrimed, woman r//ped, gay man assaulted.

when will it end? :)

i wish i could be at peace again. :)

use your platform! speak out!

don't speak about issues that don't concern you. listen to others.

am i being manipulative?

am i guilt tripping?

everything seems so... empty.

i wish everything was just... nothing.

nothing existed.

i never existed.

i wish everything would just be... still.

everything seems so much more difficult now.

it's all weighing down.

everything is my fault.

i need to fix it all.

otherwise i'm doing nothing.

i'm useless to this society.

i can make no change. i'll just make things worse. :)

why cant you feel anything, bitch?

you should be enraged.

you should be livid.

i simply do not feel

i do not wish to feel

why did so many things happen this year

my great grandpa died this year. but that's not as important. millions are dying.

i never got to see him that one last time.

why did i always forget to call him?