Night is loud, musics, dancing lights, party people. Her ears are so tired, how many weekends would pass for her to experience all of these? Then there's beer on her hand with someone forcing her to get drunk, be weak so he could easily do what he wants. His hands on her waist pushing her through his body.
Voices of narcissist and entitled evil guys around her, bragging about how worst are them. Girls tasting the fame they wanted by letting this sick people play with them. It is them who have eyes but acting blind.
"P-wede ba kong gumamit ng cr?" She tried and it's a luck to received a yes. She lead her way to piss, that's when she felt the effect of alcohol inside her but manage to do what she needs to do.
"You okay?" She heard a voice on her back and didn't mind when she recognized it.
"Please, tumigil kana." She uttered, she's so tired. He tried to hold her hand.
"Nakiki-usap ako tumigil kana, tumigil na kayo! Wag mo na kong susundan...." Can't help herself but to cry. All of them messed her life and force her to live in this f*cking mad world. She continue to walk back to the room and when she opened the door ....
"You two fucked." Shocked her. Looking straight on her eyes nilagpasan niya ito at agad kinuwelyuhan ang lalaking nasa likod niya, ang kaibigan niya.
"Akala mo ba hindi ko napapansin, sabik na sabik ka sa girlfriend ko." He's so angry and no time to hear anyone's explanation.
"What the fvck are you talking about?!" Their friends started to hold the two of them to stop.
"Bro you're fvcking drunk!"
"Don't fvcking touch me!!!"
Attentions draw on them and once again she's trapped in the situation. Cried non-stop, covered her ears so she can't hear everyone. It's happening consistently.
And then she felt his hand pulling her out to the place. They left the room with so many eyes who just witnessed a scene, again.
They went straight to his car, pushed her. He lifted the bottom of her dress, searched for her undies and pulled it down and then touch her p*ssy, searching for a hint of what he thought happened earlier. Relief can't be seen on his face though he checked it himself and proved he's wrong. He's still on a rage.
He opened the backseat of his car, force her to get in.
She's just so afraid and can't do anything but to cry. He ripped her dress and undies. He hurriedly unzip his pants.
"Tama na..." The only word she managed to say.
He positioned himself, he didn't kiss her, gave her any boob job or other works to get her ready, he just let his d*ck f*ck her, feel the pain his causing with his own way of torturing her.
"Ahh!" How evil of him to smile watching her and receiving the pain he's doing. He spread and lifted her legs, pinned it to her side.
"F*cking stop it!" His hands covered her mouth. He's f*cking her so hard, played her t*ts so bad, kissed her on neck leaving traces of hickeys.
"Now, say my name!" He speed up reaching the climax.
"Look at me, say my name...." She did on her blurry eyes.
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"Nakikita mo bayang guy na 'yan, that's my ex. Akala mo matigas, mas babae pa pala sakin ang gago! oops!" Hindi na mapigilan ang pagiging madaldal ni Lizzie, medyo nakarami narin ito ng inom. They both laughed enjoying the talk and their drinks, nasa mild influence narin siya ng alak pero nasa huwisyo parin si Anna 'di gaya ni Lizzie.
"At 'yang babaeng 'yan, piling wild pero bagsak pag kumady*t." She's really drunk. Nakinig nalang ito kay Lizzie at hinayaan sa pagkwento, well at least kahit lasinv na ito hindi parin siya nito iniiwan kung saan siya nakapako sa upuan.
"Can I ask you very odd question?" Bigla nitong naisingit pagkatapos nitong itungga ang tequila na nasa kamay niya.
"Na-experienced mo na bang may ka threesome?" Napaka-kaswal nitong tanong. She watch Lizzie as she take another shot.
"Why do you ask?"
"Gusto ko lang malaman kung ano ba ang dapat maramdaman. Does it strengthen the relationship?" She reads Lizzie. Paunti-unti habang nalulunod sa alak mas natatanggal ang takip ng pagkatao nito.
"Siguro nga sobrang tanga ko, hindi ko alam magdesisyon para sa sarili ko, hindi ko alam kung anong dapat gawin, anong dapat kong maramdaman, hindi ko alam...." Then heres the signs na sobrang lasing na ito.
"Magagalit ba 'ko?, magwawala, magseselos?."
Anna's listening to the girl with a bubbly personality but very broke inside.
"Do what you want, ikaw 'yan. May freedom ka para gawin o maramdaman kung anong gusto mo." Giving her a little encouragement but she just gave her a little smile with her sad eyes.
"For once, I did...."
Nagulat si Anna ng biglang sumulpot ang boyfriend ni Lizzie, grabbing her arms palayo sa kanilang table. She was about to stop him dahil sa kung paano niya ito pwersahang hilain but Lizzie stopped her and asked for a minute.
She waited for a minute, worrying about Lizzie. She can't see her. Loud musics and dancing lights started to make her feel dizzy so she stand up. Tried to look for Lizzie outside then there she is sitting on the side of the road. Agad niya itong nilapitan.
"Are you okay? What happened?!" She's so worried. Inalalayan niya itong tumayo.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so drunk kaya sumagap lang ako ng konting hangin." Her eyes are red at halatang kakagaling lang nito sa pag-iyak. She badly wanted to ask her what her bf did to her, what happened but she's still afraid to cross out of the line.
"Let's go home." Anna offered a ride since nandito narin si Manong Lito and she can't leave Lizzie here. Nung una tumanggi pa si Lizzie but eventually napapayag din ni Anna.
On the road, Lizzie kept saying sorry. She recalled asking Anna some vulgar questions and she's so ashamed of it. Anna said it's okay and she didn't mind and understood na nasa impluwensya sila ng alak.
Tumigil sila sa tapat ng isang bahay, agad napansin ni Anna ang babae sa veranda nito na agad ring bumaba at binuksan ang pinto.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" Bati ng babae sa hindi gaanong magandang paraan. May pagkakahawig ito kay Lizzie. Maganda, maputi at perpekto ang hubog ng katawan.
"Dito ako matutulog."Diretsong sagot ni Lizzie.
"Pagkatapos mong pakawalan si Carl, si Franco naman ngayon. Hindi kaba nag-iisip!" Patuloy na pangaral nito.
"Ate, may kasama akong kaibigan pwede bang bukas mo nalang ako bungangaan." Pagod narin ito.
" ...wait Lizzie, aalis nadin ako..." Inalok pa ito ni Lizzie na pumasok ng kanilang bahay pero tumanggi na ito, malalim narin ang gabi.
"Goodnight." Umalis si Anna and call it a night with Lizzie.
With more info about Lizzie's life, she's becoming so attached to her. Gusto niyang mag-alala, tumulong at iiwas sa mga alam niyang mali sa pananaw niya. Subalit sarili niya rin ang pumipigil sa kanya cause the more she get involve with other mas nawawala ang focus nito sa kanyang sarili, sa kung anong purpose niya.
She can't be her own past.
Hindi pwede.
BINABASA MO ANG
ANNA (R18+)
غموض / إثارة"Some secrets refuse to stay buried." Anna, who is residing in the US, was finally convinced by her art agency to fly back to the Philippines to receive the proper recognition and a bigger opportunity as an artist. This was also the best way to prov...
