Presque Vu [Phenomena Series #3]

Chapter 05

Chapter 05:

"I... I know," she looked away. "I'm sorry. Hindi ko sinasadya—"

I shushed her. "Don't say sorry. It's okay. I just want you to move on from him, since... you told me that you don't want to get back together with him, right?" she nodded. I pulled her closer. "Sabi mo... okay lang na bakuran kita. Gusto kong magsimula sa bagay na 'yon. Gusto kong... kalimutan mo na 'yung nakaraan mo, kasi ito na 'yung kasalukuyan. Hiwalay na kayo, mahigit anim na buwan na."

Yumuko siya at tumango. Ilang sandali pa, nakita kong gumalaw na nang gumalaw ang mga balikat niya. "I know," she chuckled as she looked at me with her wet eyes. "And thank you for that. Pero p'wede bang iiyak ko muna lahat ngayon? Three years is not a short period of time, and I can't easily stop myself from hurting, because there are times that I missed him. Can I cry just for tonight? I promise that this will be the last time, and then I'll completely move on."

Napabuntonghininga ako nang makita kong sunud-sunod sa pagtulo ang mga luha niya. She must've been so hurt to let go of him. She must have been so in love with him. Kung mahal naman nila ang isa't-isa, why don't they just continue the relationship and just compromise to each other afterwards? Bata pa rin naman kami, I guess? Marami pang p'wedeng magbago at baka p'wedeng mag-mature pa sila.

I sighed again. "Why don't you really want to come back to him?" I asked.

She looked at me. "Hindi nga sapat na mahal lang. Napuno na ako. Ayaw ko na."

"Baka naman sinasabi mo lang 'yan kasi gusto mong umalis siya nang tuluyan? Baka naman kapag bumalik siya rito, babalik ka rin sa kan'ya?"

Just by thinking of that hurts me so much. Bakit ba bigla kong naitanong sa kan'ya 'yon?

"I never dated someone twice. We officially ended the relationship—"

I gulped. "There are exceptions when it comes to the person you love," I sighed, frustrated. "What if you're still in love with him by the time that he comes back here? Will you come back to him too?"

Her lips parted. Does she really think that I never think this thing through? I've watched her get sad suddenly whenever she missed him; cry when she's drunk because she wanted to see him. While I was there, trying to be someone who would be there for her while her ex-boyfriend is not here anymore.

"Hindi ko alam," she answered, looking away from me.

I sighed, frustrated, with what she answered. I ran my fingers through my hair before making her face me again. Her eyes are avoiding me, but I didn't let her win.

"I am not going to control you, but I will certainly make you not come back to him anymore."

"A-Aldrin..."

"Hinayaan mo na rin naman akong bakuran ka sa mga balak pumorma sa 'yo, bakit hindi mo na rin ako hayaang manligaw? Twila, hindi naman kita mamadaliin sa pagsagot sa akin. I just want you to know that I will court you now... and I will make you forget that you once fell in love with him."

I saw her gulped as she looked away. "C-Can you move away? You're too handsome for me to look that close."

I chuckled with what she told me. "G'wapo ako?" nakangising tanong ko. She nodded, trying to conceal her smile. "Pero si Jin ang pinakagwapo sa aming apat, 'di ba? Hindi k aba nag'wapuhan sa kan'ya?"

Napanguso siya sa tanong ko na para bang nag-isip. "Jin's actually my crush."

Tangina talaga ng lalaki na 'yon. Parang ang sarap sirain ng plates niya, ah?