"Being Ben's"

44. Getting better

"Wen told me that you ate yesterday. That's good news," Sam said as she came into my room.

I shook my head. "Yup," I took a bite of the muffin my sister gave me earlier.

I don't know why I haven't eaten. I love to eat. Why do I do this to myself?

"Your mood has improved too," she chuckled. She looked up from the computer at me. "You're all good to go home, Felix. You're healing well and you're eating now."

I stopped eating mid chew. "Oh..."

I didn't know where home was but I haven't been more excited to leave a place in my whole life, I forgot to think about were we would go after.

I wonder if Ben is good to go home now too.

"Thank... you."

"You're welcome. Now get out of here." She chuckled.

I jumped up and went to Ben's room. He wasn't in his room but my sister was. "Oh hey, he said he'd meet you downstairs," she smiled.

"Oh... okay. I'll see you later?"

Felicity nodded. "Bye, Felix."

I got outside of the hospital and took a minute to breathe in the outside air then looked for Ben. He was sitting on the bench so I walked up to him slowly then sat down.

There was a while of us just staring ahead then I opened my mouth to say something but my name came from his mouth first.

"Felix," he looked at me.

"Yeah?"

He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me tight. "I'm sorry, so sorry," he said, his voice muffled against my shoulder.

"I'm sorry too." I closed my eyes and squeezed back. He kissed my cheek then my lips gently.

"But it's okay, alright?" I looked him in the eyes and reached up to put my hand on his cheek. "It's been rough but we got this, okay? Just please don't give up on us."

He nodded and smiled softly. "I won't, I haven't." He had been crying but most of the tears were gone and I used my thumb to wipe the remaining ones.

"Bésame." I said softly.

"Hmm," he smiled and kissed me like we weren't on a bench in front of a hospital with people walking down the sidewalk.

I couldn't care less.

I smiled. "Thanks," I said as he pulled away. He held my hand and leaned against me. "Let's go home, mi amor."

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Once we got to our new home and I explored a bit, I plopped myself down on the couch.

It felt good to be home although it wasn't completely our home yet. It was a cute home not as big as the house in Hawaii but it was cozy and it felt homier.

"It's nice I like it," I said with a satisfied hum then looked at Ben who was pacing the room.

He didn't realize I said anything at first then raised his eyebrows. "Oh, yeah. It is, isn't it," he said, with a finger on his chin.

"What's the matter?" I asked, sitting up.

"Nothing... I was just thinking."

"About what?"

"We don't have any means of transportation."

"Uh... my car is at my parents house."

My sister told me that after a month of me being gone all my belongings had gone to my parent's house and they had just thrown everything in my room.