When you have a one night stand with a future worldwide kpop idol.
Fate brings you together in the most unexpected ways, but it also pulls you apart just as much.
Your life as a kpop idol isn't easy, but Kim Mingyu is there to help. Wether you like...
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You were discharged a few days later. Mingyu didn't leave your side, which you felt bad for but you were extremely grateful. All your work activities were put on hold and some were cancelled. The news of your accident hasn't been uttered past the companies, no one knows. If they were to find out, your career would be over and the girls would face harsh feedback.
You invited Mingyu over to your dorm since the girls weren't present and he happily agreed since he drove you home from the hospital.
You thought that it was the perfect time to explain everything and give him an insight on your past.
You both took refuge on the sofa, and sat in an awkward silence for a few minutes. You didn't know where to start or what to say. You could tell that he was eager to know what happened but it was still difficult to recall. But the way he gifted you comfort when he held your hand, the nervousness whisked away. You knew you could trust him.
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." He said.
"No I want to. I feels wrong to keep you in the dark." You waved him off.
You took a deep breath, sparing some time to gather your thoughts and allow the words to sit at the tip of your tongue. "I got scouted the same day I dropped out of college. There were a lot of trainees at the time so I was in constant competition. I needed to debut, not because I wanted to be famous, but because I needed a way to financially support myself. My parents cut me off so I could no longer afford my apartment, plus I had lost my job. So when a stranger came up to me and handed me a business card, offering me an audition to become an idol, I couldn't refuse."
"Luckily I had some experience in dance, so I passed the audition by dancing to replay by SHINee. Little did I know, that this was only the start of my downfall. I became homeless so I moved into the dorms because I was completely broke, I lived off the company for as long as I could. Just to stay, I would overwork myself when it came up to monthly evaluations. Each month, half a dozen trainees would be forced to leave. I didn't want to be that person. I thrived to be number one."
"After around a year of training, I took an interest in producing. I also thought it would push me a step further to debut, which it did. I had found my passion in writing lyrics and making music that it had completely taken over my life. I was struggling to stay up at night so I went to a pharmacy and brought some pills that would keep me awake. At first I was using them responsibly, I knew my limit. But the moment I found out I was on the debut team, I pushed myself more. I ended up taking more and more pills until I passed out. The girls found me and took me to the hospital, they knew something was going on. I didn't overdose but I fainted from having almost not a blink of sleep in a whole week. It was also when they found out that I had the drugs in my system. Ever since then, I stopped using."
"It wasn't until recently that I took them again. I was overtook by stress that I didn't know what I was doing. But somehow I knew enough to hide it." You lowered your head, refusing to show any signs of weakness. "I'm so sorry."
You was expecting Mingyu to leave, not wanting anything more to do with you. But his response was the opposite. He embraced you in a warm hug while rubbing shapes on your back. "You're so strong." He said.
"How can you say that?"
"Because you went through it all alone and you came back up in the end."
You scoffed and shifted out of his arms. Your eyes flicked from left to right as you stared into his. "It's also why I have devoted myself to make sure my members come out at the top. They literally saved my life, I owe them everything."
"Don't you realise that feeling indebted to them is what caused you to relapse in the first place?" Mingyu carefully asked.
Your eyebrows crossed and your chin jolted back. You were confused by his question and was low-key offended. You didn't really know how to reply since you thought it was highly ridiculous. "Of course not. They are my friends, my sisters."
"But you're overworking yourself just because you feel the need to make them succeed. You aren't even thinking about yourself."
"It's called being selfless, Mingyu." Your tone hardened as well as the volume rising. You were becoming angry. He has the cheek to blame them?
"It doesn't hurt to be a little selfish sometimes. You shouldn't trade your life just to make others shine." The conversation was slowly turning into an argument.
"I haven't traded anything." You shot back. "I'm taking the role of a leader and a good friend."
"This is not what being a leader is, Y/n. You need to see the situation in my point of view. You literally said that you aren't doing this for yourself. Don't you understand that you're hurting yourself just to make others happy. It isn't healthy."
"What's not healthy is you butting into my life as if you know me better than the back of your hand. I know how to take care of myself, I don't need you to tell me what I'm doing is right or wrong."
Mingyu was beginning to get irritated. He loved the fact that your were selfless. But you took it too a whole other level. "I don't mean it like that."
"Then explain to how you see the situation." You crossed your arms, not wanting to hold his hands as he tried to tell you how to live your life.
"I just think that you should focus more on yourself other then sacrificing your time and freedom just to make others happy."
"Making others happy is what makes me happy. That's what you don't understand. I enjoy how I spend my time. Just because you go out drinking and prancing around for fun, doesn't mean everyone else does too."
"Don't lie. I've watched you work, Y/n. It doesn't make you happy, it suffocates you. Yet every time you've come out with me, heck even Joshua, you're always smiling and genuinely enjoy yourself. I've spotted the difference and I know you better than you think."
"You have no right to tell me what I like doing. Can't you hear yourself right now? You sound like you're controlling me. Are you really expecting me to stop working just so I can go and have fun. Look what happened last time I had fun, I ended up sleeping with you."
Your words pained him and you could tell by the way the colour drained from his face as you exaggerated the last word.
His response was just nodding his head while pressing his lips together, forming a thin line. "I know you're going through some tough things right now so I'm going to tell myself that you're just hurt." He stood up without sparing you a glance. "Make sure you get some sleep tonight." Was the last thing he said before leaving you to fend alone.
The moment you heard the door shut behind him, you allowed yourself to burst into tears. You felt stupid. Why did you say that? You were just so heated in the moment, you were angry at him for blaming your friends for your own mistakes.
Just as things were going well for you, the gods decided that being happy wasn't an option in your world. You were destined to be tired and alone. And a small part of you knew that it would be a while before you see or hear from Mingyu again.
