A girl with a dark past, she wants to keep it the past. She has a lot of trust issues but for some reason, she trust's him. Was that a mistake? Will her life crumble down completely? You'll have to read to find out ;)
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I was snapped out of my thought as Josh pulled into my drive way. He got out of the car, but I couldn't move. More tears started falling down my cheek and I don't know why. Josh came around and opened the car door for me, noticing i'm crying. He bent down so his face was at my level and just started at me with a worried expression. Tears where falling down my face, but I wasn't crying? It's like i'm frozen or something. Josh then made eye contact with me and a look of sympathy spread across his face. He just leant in and hugged me. I hugged him back. I wasn't used to this, but I liked it. Before I knew it, Josh grabbed my legs and lifted me out of the car. He adjusted my legs so they where wrapped around his torso and my arms where wrapped around his neck which also has my face buried in it. He wraps his arms around my waist and starts walking into what I think is my house. I was right. He quickly took off his shoes and carried me to my room. When he got to my room, he lays me in my bed and sits beside me.
Josh: I'm sorry for kissing you Sam, I just thought-
*I cut him off*
Me: It's not you.
*He looks at me confused*
Me: It's me and my past.
*I say that with my voice cracking. He gives me a look telling me to go on. I take a deep breath and try to talk, but nothing comes out. More tears start falling down my cheeks as memories pop into my mind. I can't tell him. No way. I think he notices that I don't want to talk about it cause he grabs my hand softly and nods*
Josh: It's ok, you don't have to tell me.
I nod and we just sit there. Was I really about to tell him about my dad and all those men? We study each others faces in complete silence. I don't know why to do. I like him, but I can't tell him I do. Theres no way he likes me. Or does he? If he didn't then why would he kiss me? this is complicated! Feelings are complicated and I want them to go away! The next thing I know, I fell asleep. The next morning, I woke up and changed into this:
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Then I get a text from Josh:
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I smiled and headed downstairs, excited to see Josh. I don't know why I felt this way because we're just friends... I think? I got pulled out of my thoughts by Josh honking the car horn. He got here fast. I ran outside with a huge smile plastered on my face. I don't know why i'm this happy. I got in the car, greeted by a grinning Josh.
Me: Hi!
Josh: Hey, why are you so happy?
*He says through chuckling. I just shrugged my shoulders. I don know why. It's because I get to be with him. God, I hate feelings*
Me: So, where are you taking me?
*He chuckles and smirks*
Josh: I want to show you something!
I smile and nod. I look out the window still all smiley. Only Josh was able to do this to me. Only Josh was able to make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. A couple minutes later, Josh parked the car. I didn't know where we were, maybe a beach? We got out and Josh held his hand out for me to take. I gladly took it and he starts walking through this beach forest thingy. He kept my hand in his but I didn't mind. A couple seconds later, I started walking on a dock. I looked around and we were on a beach, well an empty one. Maybe a private beach? He started walking down the dock and I did too, as well as taking in the view. The water was crashing against the giant rocks that rested under the dock. Me and Josh walked to the end of the dock and sat down, our feet sometimes getting splashed.
Me: How'd you know about this place?
*He slightly smiles*
Josh: My dad used to come here as a kid and it was always empty, so we just kinda... took it.
*I laugh and Josh stares at me. I look down and then look back up at him. I laugh nervously*
Me: What?
*He smiles*
Josh: Nothing, I just love your laugh!
I blush and look down, trying to hide it. This boy really has turned me into one of the girls that drools over him. I didn't even have to look up at him to see his grin. I then look back out at the view in front of me. We do that for a while until Josh breaks the silence.
Josh: Look, i'm sorry about yesterday if I made you feel uncomfortable. But, i'm not sorry for kissing you.
