Salmon

18: Cry

18: Cry

   It had been two days since Idge had found out the truth. It had been two days since her body felt numb. It had been two days since she decided to lock herself... again.

   "Idge? Kain ka na..." Ingrid asked softly.

   Nang walang sumagot mula sa kwarto ay nagkatinginan na lamang sina Nate, at Ingrid. Akmang muli siyang kakatok nang pigilan ni Nate ang kamay niya.

   "What?"

   Nate shook his head. "Let her be. Pagbubuksan ka niya mamaya."

   "But she needs to eat," Ingrid shouted in a hushed voice.

   Bumuga nang marahas na hangin si Nate at hinawakan ang kamay ng dalaga. "She will. Trust her with this."

   Ingrid averted her gaze, and held his hand tighter.

   Ingrid had no other choice but to put her ear on Idge's door from time to time, hoping for a little movement. However, she had failed. Ingrid didn't know how many times she thought of breaking the door, but she wanted to trust her sister.

   "Sis... I'm here. We're here," bulong niya, nakatitig sa pinto ng dalaga. "If you can't handle everything, remember us. You don't have to carry everything alone. You don't have to think everything's your fault. it's not. No one wanted those to happen. You never wanted those to happen."

   Idge could hear her sister from the outside, but she made no movement. She was just staring at her wall. Head empty. She wasn't crying. She didn't even know how to cry anymore. She knew she's in pain, but she felt nothing.

   She's still wearing the same clothes she had since the day she found out the truth. She didn't feel like herself anymore. She felt lifeless.

   Maluha-luhang umalis si Ingrid sa pinto ng kapatid nang walang narinig na pagkilos at iniwan na lamang ang pagkain sa sahig, inaasahang kukunin ito ng kapatid. Bago humarap sa kasintahan, pinunasan muna niya ang luha.

   "Tara?"

   "Are you sure, we're leaving Idge?" nag-aalalang tanong ni Nate.

   "I trust her."

   Magkasamang dumating sa hospital ang dalawa upang dalawin si Kaiden na hanggang ngayon ay wala pa ring malay. Everyone was worried to those two, but they couldn't do anything but wait for them to heal. They needed to wait until they wake up.

   "Ingrid, Nate," salubong ng magulang ni Kaiden.

   Ingrid stared at Nate's mother, remembering her sister. She knew her sister wasn't at fault. However, she also knew the way Idge think, and she couldn't blame her for that.

   She sighed. "Tita, how's Kaiden?"

   Nate who was behind her became attentive when his mother's eyes well up. He removed his hands on Ingrid's waist, and positioned himself in front of her.

   "Ma?" tanong ng lalaki.

   Pinanood ni Ingrid na humugot ng malalim na hininga ang Ginang at punasan ang sariling luha.

   "He's awake."

   Idge was definitely lost. The moment she came face to face with the truth, a single tear didn't even dropped from her eyes. She ran away, and left Trisha, thinking that's what she's good at. 

   Nang makarating siya sa apartment na halos hindi niya matandaan kung paano niya nagawa pa, ikinulong niya na ang sarili sa kwarto. She didn't even cry because all she felt was numbness. It was like a rock had taken over her heart that she didn't know what to feel anymore.