Lust Of Paris

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"Il peut faire ce qu'il veut, je m'en fiche. S'il veut aller à une date avec Bianca, bien! Baiser? Bien! Sexe? Bien pour lui! Je ne me soucierai pas de moins de ce que cette stupide américaine fait avec son temps libre..."

(He can do whatever he wants, I don't care. If he wants to go on a date with Bianca, fine! Kiss? Fine! Sex? Good for him! I couldn't care a less what that stupid American does with his free time)

It was a good thing that he was alone at home with only Bernadette giving him company and he couldn't tell how much she understood. Gabriel tried to keep himself busy while Alex was on a date with that stranger from the coffee shop but for some reason that was all he could think about.

He had no idea why he was suddenly so obsessed with Alex's dating life but it couldn't be good. If he admitted to himself that he was indeed jealous, then it would ruin their friendship completely. Gabriel couldn't be normal with him ever again while knowing how he felt about him while Alex clearly only saw him as a friend.

Because if he had feelings for him then he surely wouldn't go out with someone else! To make it even more ridiculous, he had believed and hoped that maybe Alex liked him. He had been certain that he was going to kiss him at one point but it was only his imagination.

It was Gabriel's own fault and somehow he would find a way out of this mess. The jealousy made him feel a bit anxious and he didn't know what to do with it. Should he tell Alex that he didn't want him to go out with Bianca or pretend that everything was alright and he wasn't thinking non-stop of what they were doing right now?

"Ne me regarde pas comme ça, je ne suis pas fou!" (Don't look at me like that, I'm not crazy) Gabriel talked to Bernadette once he realized that she had been staring at him while looking very judging. Was he crazy, though, for thinking if Alex and Bianca had sex and if it was good?

While thinking of that like a pervert, he started to wonder what kind of lover Alex was? Was he gentle and loving or rough and most importantly, top or a bottom? Was he a selfish man who only cared about his needs or did he want to give his partners pleasure too?

Gabriel had had sex with only three men in his life. Two guys before he started to date Leo and then his ex-husband. Honestly, he wouldn't mind adding Alex to that list but unfortunately, he realized that only after Alex went out with someone else.

The clock was already 8.30pm which meant that the date wasn't going badly because if it did then Alex would have left already and probably called him to complain about Bianca. Where were they now?

Realizing that staying inside with his thoughts wouldn't make him feel any better, Gabriel decided to go out for a run. That had always calmed him down quite easily but the sport had never been important enough to pay money for a gym so he often went running to the forest.

Because it was July and summer had officially started, there was still a bit of sunshine and even if it disappeared, Gabriel wouldn't run back home just because it was dark. He had grown up in this city and could walk in those forests with his eyes closed.

Like always, he put music coming through headphones and forgot the rest of the world and all of his problems. Unfortunately, that didn't work for even ten minutes until his phone started to ring. Gabriel almost ignored the call until he realized that it could be an emergency. It most likely wasn't true but he didn't want to risk it if someone needed him.

The caller was Alex. Why did that make him so happy and relieved at the same time? "Hey, how's the date going?"

"Where are you?" Alex asked at the same time, making him frown. That was a strange question to ask from a date with a very beautiful woman like Alex so kindly pointed out.