Timeless and Bliss #wattys2016

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

    I had taken my time walking to Felix's house. I was a little early, but figured Dexter and Exie would be early as well. I opened the front door and made my way to the bathroom. I shoved the rug away and began climbing down the ladder grasping onto the silver cold rungs for support. My feet planted on the ground and I turned myself around to see one other body in the room. Felix caught my eye and he was quick to disregard my presence.

    "Felix?" I tried grabbing his attention, but he continued to brush me off. "Felix?" I tried again more aggravated this time. My steps carried me to him while holding my breath. He was just about to place the last items into his bag when I placed my hand on his shoulder. I could feel Felix's body tense up then shoved me away catching me off balance.

    "Don't touch me." His words were cold, sharp, and stern and in moments like these he resembled his own father. My heart felt heavy and the tears swelled in my eyes. I held them back not wanting to appear weak. This wasn't my fault and I wasn't to be blamed.

    "Felix talk to me," I nearly cried out. He turned on his heel staring directly into my eyes.

    "You want to talk? Fine let's talk! Let's talk about how you just played me like a game. Let's talk about how you admit your love for me then go and kiss the guy who's like a brother to me. Let's talk about the fact that I have two people I care about in this world and I feel betrayed by both of them!" Felix's chest heaved as the words spilled out. I stood flat against the wall speechless. At first I felt despair take over only to remember who was really at fault here.

    "No!" I stood tall pushing Felix away. "You are not to play the victim here! I didn't kiss Dexter, he kissed me, and when he did I shoved him off. Secondly, if anyone's the player here it's you! How many times have I told you I loved you? How many times have I poured my heart and soul out to you? I have done everything in my power to be sure you knew how I felt and I get nothing in return!

    You keep secrets from me, you hide, you put walls up, I get that your hurting Felix so am I! I can't keep doing this. I can't keeping loving someone who might not even love me back or be with someone who won't tell me why we can't be together! Please Felix I just need to know."My face was red from the anger and pink from all the tears I started to cry.

     "It's not that easy!" Felix grabbed onto my wrist. His touch didn't hurt however, it was tight enough so I couldn't escape. I tried squirming away from his grip, it was no use.

    "Let me go!" I fought thrusting my body in different directions, attempting to hit him with my freed fist. As I continue to struggle I felt his grip start to hurt.

    "Blaize, please stop!" Felix shook me once and I stared into his creamy blue eyes sniffing back the sobs.

    "Just tell me how you feel." All I wanted was to understand him and he wouldn't allow it.

    "I can't do that." Felix looked at the ground disappointed.

    "Then tell me why we can't be together," I whimpered.

    "I can't," Felix no longer wore his mask. I could see the pain written all over his face. Once more I tried to wriggle free but he suddenly pulled me onto his lips. For a second I sunk into the kiss. Then I recovered dazed at the intense moment.

     "You can't keep doing that!" I began crying hitting his chest.

    "Doing what?" He pretended to be oblivious.

    "Keep thinking you can fix everything if you just kiss me! I need words Felix!" There wasn't anything I loved more than when he kissed me. It was a safe, comforting place to be. It had always been enough for me, not this time though.

    "I love you!" He shouted. My face went blank from the utter shock of his words.

    "W-what?" I stammered.

    "I love you," Felix whispered. "I am, without a doubt, in love with you. I need you, Blaize. I cannot live without you in my presence. Just please Blaize, try to understand," His voice shook and for the first time I saw tears streaming down his pale cheeks.  I pressed my lips onto his feeling the warm euphoric sensation. I could feel the need, the want, that was always there, but this time it was more sensational. He deepened the kiss cupping my cheeks pulling me closer to him.

    "I love you too," I said after he released me smiling.

    "I love you so much," He repeated. "But we can't be together. I'm so sorry," Felix was clearly in agony as he said the words. I didn't think it was possible for someone to break your heart twice, especially in one day. My knees were weak and my hands shook at the torturous words.

    "Can you tell me why?"

    Felix looked at the ground frowning then back up to me. "No," he replied then continued.  "It's to keep you safe, I promise. There's nothing I want more than to be with you. It just can't happen." I nodded at his explanation taking a step back.

    "Then this is it I guess." I was about to walk away to cool down when Felix grabbed my hand and pulled me into another kiss.

    "Please don't leave me," Felix whimpered against my lips.

    "We can't keep doing this Felix. It's not fair to you and it's not fair to me. Maybe one day if you can tell me the truth, but not right now."

    "What's going on?" We both turned our heads to see Exie standing at the bottom of the ladder clearly questioning Felix and I's proximity to one another.

    "Nothing." I shook my head stepping away from Felix. Soon Dexter jumped onto the ground and I sighed not knowing if he had saw Felix and I it wouldn't have been the best way to let him down.

    "What's up?" Dexter asked creating awkward tension between Felix and me.

    "Nothing," I repeated giving a soft smile feeling relieved.