Timeless and Bliss #wattys2016

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

His lips crashed onto mine so suddenly that it took me a moment to process the situation. I didn't push away, instead I found my hand traveling up to his neck accepting the sweet and simple kiss. His hand made its way to the small of my back then gently under my shirt pressing me closer into the moment. I felt uneasy in this situation and quickly shoved at his chest causing him to stumble a few feet.

    "What are you doing?" I questioned his motives in a whisper, being careful to not wake Felix and Exie up.

    "Oh, Blaize I'm sorry." Desire and pain was heard through his voice and seen through his soft eyes as he took a step closer to me. He placed his hand on my arm with an apologetic expression, but I was quick to tear away. I didn't want this.

    "You know how I feel about Felix! Why would you do that?" Red seared through my body and I found it difficult to keep calm under all the tension and pressure.

     "I'm sorry. I just needed you in the moment to put my broken pieces together. Even if it was for a short memorable moment." Dexter paused taking in a breath. "How do you feel about Felix?"

    "I love him," I responded instantly, knowing how I felt about him was undeniable. He cringed slightly at my harsh words.

    "Does he love you?" Dexter asked taking a step closer to me. I looked down at the floor in disappointment not knowing how to answer that question. He cared I know he did his lips told me so. But love was a whole other thing with Felix, my beautiful complex creature.

    "I-I don't know," I stuttered peering up at him through my blonde hair. His hand reached across my face and pushed the strand of loose hair out of my eyes.

    "Dexter stop." I shrugged away turning in the other direction. At this point the situation had become unbearable. I didn't know what I want.

    "Blaize why are you running from me?" Dexter whispered chasing me across the room. "I just want to be with you and no one else. Why can't you accept that? Why can't you accept me? I have so much love and passion for you and you keep disregarding every bit of it. I want us to be able to help fix each other. We're both hurt, I get that. I just can't grasp onto why I can't be the one there for you, the one to love you, the one for you to love back."

    "Because you're not Felix!" I nearly shouted. Scratch that. I did know what I want. I wanted the love, the affection, the memories, the laughs, the kisses, the bad times, the secrets, I wanted it all. I wanted everything Dexter was unintentionally giving me, but with Felix.

    Dexter furrowed his eyebrows glaring through me as if he was trying to hold back every ounce of the anger I deserved. His breathes shortened turning on his heel facing the brick gray wall. Groaning he buried his face into his hands. I cautiously walked over to him and placed my hand gently on his broad shoulder.

    "Dexter I-"

     "I don't get you, Blaize!" Dexter interrupted shoving me off of him and out of the way. "You can't be with Felix! You know that, he knows that, and even I understand that. So why do you continue to chase after someone you can't have?"

    "I don't know why I can't be with him, but regardless it's none of your damn business! I'm sorry Dexter. I just don't love you the way I love Felix. Do you really think I want to feel so passionate about someone who can't possibly be with me for whatever reason?" I was infuriated with him and his selfish behavior. Dexter was acting like a child who would throw a temper tantrum when they didn't get their way.

    "Fine don't give me a chance!" Dexter was in my face shouting at this point. I glanced nervously at Felix who seemed to be moving quite a bit then turned my attention back to Dexter. He took one last step hovering centimeters away from my face. "You're wasting your time with Felix. He will never be with you. It's in his best intentions. If I were you, I would stop trying for your sake," Dexter whispered into my ear through his clenched teeth.

    "What's going on?" I looked over Dexter's shoulder to see Felix watching us in astonishment. I could see the frown pinned on Felix's face as he examined the situation. I was practically jammed against the wall with Dexter's massive body, his face was so close to my neck I could feel his warm pant. This didn't look good on our part. Dexter backed away from me and I felt as if I could finally relax again.

    "Dexter what's going on?" Felix grew irritated and I was unsure of how to respond so I remained quiet.

    "Nothing," Dexter replied. Both men were clearly annoyed and the anxiety in the room was growing in each agonizing second.

    "Dexter and I kissed," I blurted out. Felix's eyes grew wide, his jaw tightened balling his fist up. I immediately regretted my actions as the three of us silently stood in the room exchanging glances.    Dexter was glaring at me for snitching on us, Felix at me, appalled that I would even kiss him, and Dexter and Felix at one another in pure jealousy and rage. Oh no, what had I done?