Timeless and Bliss #wattys2016

Chapter 36

Chapter 36

By kissing endless bottles of alcohol I thought I could submerge the emptiness he left behind. And for a single night, it worked. I wasn't able to recall his pale blue eyes or the way it felt to have his strong hands graze my skin. I couldn't remember the color of his hair or the way his lips tasted when pressed against mine. For a single night any memory of him vanished. I was drunk, but I loved the idea of never having been touched by him, like I was brand new.

I left. I know that. That doesn't make the process any easier. I was expecting the alcohol to help me feel numb, and it did. By the time morning rolled around he was still alive within me. The flames were flourishing and the liquor was only there to forget about him temporarily. I hadn't forgotten and the thriving headache only reminded me that I probably couldn't ever forget and that sickened me to the very core. And that's when I realized a hangover hurts less than a heartbreak.

Malakai and I cleaned ourselves up and left the room which smelt wretched from last night. My shoes never made it off of my feet which had been covered in vomit leaving my bed sheets in bad shape. "At least we don't have to clean it up," Malakai had said as we left the room which only made me feel that much guiltier.

We walked side by side with our markings proudly displayed on our arms. Neither of us were feeling right but we were scheduled for training. It would be the first time Malakai and I trained together. As we walked through the door Atrix was waiting for us and his face changed instantly. We both looked rough.

"Didn't I specifically tell you guys not to drink?" Atrix kept calm but it was obvious he was mad. Malakai and I didn't respond we felt the disappointment. "Go! You are completely useless to me today and I can't have my Voyants getting hurt." He angrily marched out of the room and I a sense of relief submerged us both.

"Thank you for last night Malakai," I said as we left the training quarters.

"Sorry Atrix got so mad at us," Malakai apologized. Atrix didn't yell. I almost wish he did because when he didn't that meant Atrix was really upset.

"It was worth it," I said smiling. "Best birthday ever." Malakai and I went our separate ways to sleep the hangover except my room still hadn't been cleaned. I took a spot on the sofa in the hang out room. It wasn't the most comfortable space. I didn't care. The headache had taken on new level and my stomach was twisting into a tight knot.

"What are you doing?" A voice said right as my eyes closed. I peeked over the arm of the couch to see who was acknowledging my existence. Felix stood there furrowing his eyebrows. My heart began beating twice as fast.

I ignored the nervous feeling and said, "Trying to sleep. My room is kind of a mess." I lowered my head settling back into the sofa hoping to fight off the awful symptoms.

"Atrix told me where you went last night. I'm guessing you didn't listen to him and drank anyway?" He sat down beside my feet undoubtedly irritated.

"So you and Atrix are best buddies now?" I sneered at him like he was a joke.

"I've been to the city Blaize. I know the clubs down there."

"Have you now?" I said in the most sarcastic voice I possibly could. A lecture was really not on my agenda today.

"We just broke up and you're already moving on, dancing with other guys. What is with you Blaize? This isn't you." I wasn't sure how he even got this information. I tilted my head toward him frowning and glaring. Suddenly he saw my arm and quickly grabbed it. "What is this? Did you get this last night?" I pulled my arm back tucking it under my arm to support my head as a pillow.