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       as a person jiayu is aware how 'persistent' she is, to the point where other people finds it annoying. she's way too pushy and sometimes way too hyper that other people can't keep up with her.

but just like everyone else, the outgoing bubbly jiayu zhang have her own limits too.

it was unusual how jiayu didn't cram her plates nor requirements and submitted them on time, it was unusual how she oddly feel ready for the upcoming exams, quite opposite from erisa who seems to be in a dilemma.

it was unusual how jiayu zhang wasn't chasing for renjun huang.

before exam season, the two tend to spend time together before busying themselves with their studies but this time around, none of it happen. so instead, jiayu spend most of her time doing her plates, homeworks and requirements, even studying for exams just to take renjun out her mind.

renjun was so busy with his studies as well as activities from his organization that jiayu could barely caught even a single glance of him.

but its okay, jiayu understood, afterall she did tell renjun she'll be waiting for him.

so she did. she stayed patient and understanding.

jiayu notice how renjun would turn down her invitations, how he seems to be agitated when she'll pop up in his condo unannounced, how he keep making excuses about his organization being busy and how he ignored her messages, but jiayu didn't mind.

she love renjun way too much to be affected by this kind of things.

but jiayu zhang have her own limits too.

was it too hard for him to give her even just a minute of his day? was it so hard for him to send even just a single message?

jiayu distance herself from him, understood him and stayed patient to the point it almost feel like she's waiting for nothing.

the thought of it scares her. she's been waiting for two years, two whole years and there's no way she's letting this whole thing she have with renjun go that easily.

so she become pushy. she keep on visiting him, asking him to go out and have lunch or dinner with her despite being turned down most of the time. she'll pop up on his classroom just to see him even just for a second.

but jiayu zhang have her limits too.

alam niya kung gaano siya ka desperada tignan.

and just like everyone else, jiayu zhang gets tired too.

'nakakapagod pala.' nakakapagod maghabol sa tao na ayaw magpahabol, nakakapagod maghintay sa mga bagay na walang kasiguraduhan ang pagdating.

nakakapagod kumapit sa taong matagal ng bumitaw.

maybe, it's time to stop. maybe it's time na sarili naman niya piliin niya.

she stayed patient and understanding, kaso nakakapagod, kaso masakit din.

she's willing to choose renjun anytime of the day, but what about her? sino naman pipili sa kanya? sasalo at mananatili sa oras ng kadiliman?