Ablaze |Season 2| (Under Revision)

Chapter 52

OCTAVIA

THE FREAKING audacity of that woman to be rude to me, assuming something that she didn't even know. I know nothing? Because no one would tell me something!

I scoffed in madness. Huminga ako nang malalim para pakalmahin ang sarili ko dahil hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin makalimutan ang mga sinabi niya kanina. Bakit naman buong umaga lang kaming hindi nagkita ni Ferish, may babae na agad siya?

F*ck. I honestly did not know how to react, but I can't back down. Nakakainis lang. It felt like I was suddenly slapped by the bitter truth that I have no right over Ferish because we are merely... friends. Gosh, friends!

Ramdam ko ang inis sa buong katawan ko. Saan naman nanggaling 'yung babae niya na bigla na lang din sumulpot? She claimed Ferish as hers, and knowing that latter, she would've already told me if she already has a girlfriend, so that means that there is none.

Napahawak ako sa ulo nang maalala ang nakita ko kanina. They honestly look happy together. I saw how Ferish gave her a longing and genuine smile, while that woman stares at her with pure... love. Goodness, kaano-ano niya 'yung babae?

Umalis nga 'yung prinsipe, dumating naman 'yung kambal na mas malala sa kan'ya. Puro sakit sa ulo ang binibigay nila sa akin. Bakit ba hindi na lang sila manahimik sa mga ginagawa nila? Why on Earth do they have to bother Ferish here?

Nakauwi na 'yung maliit na 'yon na siguradong nasa dorm at sinabihan akong mag-uusap kami. What else did they do? Did they hug each other? Did they... kiss?

Oh, my God, no!

"Ms. Quinsley! What's with the aggressive spike? Are you mad?" The coach shouted that brought me back to reality.

Napakurap ako at natauhan nang maalalang nasa practice pa nga pala kami ng volleyball. Patapos na talaga at last game na, pero kanina pa talaga masama ang pakiramdam ko, simula nung makita ko si Ferish na may kasamang ibang babae. Bakit ba ang lapitin niya masyado?

I mean... I can't blame them. She can pull both genders together without even exerting much effort. She is an amazing girl who deserves to be adored.

"Ms. Quinsley, I am asking yo---"

"Yes, coach. I am. What can you do about it?" I intently asked him. Nilapitan ko siya kaya agad siyang umatras at tumikhim. He even raised his hands, trying to calm me down.

"Go back to practice now." Utos niya at tinuro ang court. Walang ganang bumalik ako at hindi na pinansin ang mga titig nila sa akin na parang nanghuhusga. Tori and Lexi did not say anything again but gave me a meaningful stare that made me sigh.

We practiced for the last remaining minutes. He also told us something that I didn't pay any attention for I am still pissed. Nadala ko na 'yung inis ko hanggang ngayong gabi. I can't stop thinking about Ferish and that woman, Aeri.

I am certain that she knows something about me in the past. I can feel it. Her words and stares hold a deep meaning, as though I did her wrong in the past, when I am unaware of everything that happened in those two years that we were in Greece.

What is it that I did? Why... why is her tone sarcastic when she said that I am living a good life? Don't I deserve to live in one? F*ck. She does not know anything about it. She does not know how hard it is for me to survive everything, to get out of the bed, to interact with people, to... fight all these monsters that is inside my head.

She does not have the right to say those words to me. It is her who knows nothing of my own suffering.

Sa gym na ako naligo dahil malinis naman ang CR doon at para na rin magluluto na lang ako pagdating sa dorm. Pinaua ko na rin na makauwi 'yung dalawa na mukhang mas pagod pa kaysa sa akin dahil halos sila lang daw ang gumagawa sa thesis nila kanina.