Ablaze |Season 2| (Under Revision)

Chapter 72

FERISH

BEING A ZYN is not a walk in the park.

It is a heavy responsibility that we will forever bear; we will be haunted by the ghosts of sins of our family. You get to be judged, be invalidated a thousand times, be blamed for a sin you didn't commit, and repeatedly die in so much agony.

Being a Zyn means you need to endure dying inside because that's what you have to do, and that's what the ancestors did. We must never tolerate weakness and we must stand proud for being born in this bloodline.

You have to preserve honor, and you have to forget all the emotions just to get your goal done.

But, maybe, I am different. I do not want to feel that way. I do not want to give up such emotions, and I would rather give up that honor if it means that I can stay with Octavia. I would rather giving everything up if it means that I can freely be with her, may it be against the Organization, the family, or the whole world. I will choose her.

It is my greatest sin to be alive when I should not. I wasn't supposed to exist, pero, hindi ko naman sinisi ang mga magulang ko sa bagay na 'yon. Sadyang lumayo lang ako sa kanila dahil ayokong madamay sila. Dahil sa tuwing may napapalapit sa akin ay napapahamak lang sila.

Pero, hindi ngayon.

I will do what I must to protect who I must. I will fight this time. I had enough of those people who keeps on taking away the people who are precious to me.

"I will not leave," niyakap ako ni Eight kaya sumiksik ako sa leeg niya. "Not again. I'm so sorry, my baby..."

Tumango ako. Inaantok na naman ako habang yakap niya ako sa mga bisig niya. Inayos ko na ulit ang suot kong polo at kumalas sa yakap niya. I just hope that I can be true with those words I said, because I knew to myself that Octavia can repeatedly leave me, but I will still accept her once she decides to come back.

"Ikaw ba, maayos na talaga pakiramdam mo?" Tanong ko sa kan'ya dahil kanina pa siya nag-aalala sa akin. I want to make sure that she is also fine.

"Hm-mm, much better," bahagya siyang ngumiti. Her smile almost took my breath away. "Especially that you are here. I'm sorry, I really thought... na hindi ako 'yung mahal mo," paumanhin niya muli sa akin.

"Imposibleng hindi kita mamahalin, Octavia," umiling ako. "That's just impossible. Each piece of me, including my whole life, belongs to you alone," paglilinaw ko. I would rather not love if it is not Octavia.

Tumango siya at sandaling nag-isip. Hindi pa rin kami umaalis ngayon sa kama dahil mukhang may mga tanong pa rin siyang naiwan. "Ah, I remember a girl telling me that I am one of the most important member of the Organization. Why is that?"

Napangiti ako sa isipan. Octavia may have come from a different Organization, but she is considered to be one with me. She is rightfully mine, especially that she have my mark. The mark of my family.

"Because you're my wife," simpleng sagot ko. Her, being my wife, means sharing the same position as me. "Hindi halata pero importante rin kasi ako sa Organisasyon. Pero sakto lang din," I reassured her because I do not want her to think that I am someone higher than anyone else. I want her to think that we are on the same level.

She gave me a stoic expression that made me pout. Ano na naman ba 'yon? "The last time you told me sakto, I found out that you are literally a royalty. High status. You are of royal blood, Ferish. You are a well-known and feared CEO at your age. You own businesses across the world. You are an heir to the throne."