Ablaze |Season 2| (Under Revision)

Chapter 60

OCTAVIA

IT MAY SOUND so creepy, but I've been watching her sleep beside me.

Kanina pa ako gising at kanina ko pa rin siya pinapanood na matulog sa tabi ko. She looked so peaceful as if she's not carrying any burdens on her shoulder. Malalim ang paghinga niya habang nakasiksik sa dibdib ko. She's hugging my waist tightly. Nakapatong din ang binti niya sa akin na parang ayaw akong makawala.

Mahaba ang pilik-mata niya at matangos ang ilong. Ang kinis ng balat niya at maputi siya. My Ferish is such a gorgeous girl. Makapal din ang mga kilay niyang ang inosente tignan ng pagkaka-kurba. Her lips looked so thin that has a reddish color. Even in her sleep, she looked so alluring in my eyes.

I gently kissed her forehead. Seeing her in dress last night makes me want... her even more. I don't know. I just have the urge to own her as mine. I will always want her as mine. I am choosing her. I know that she is worth the risk.

I remembered how she stood there like a royalty. The dress she wore perfectly fits her feminine features. Her confidence, the way she speak, the way she interact with people... was as if she is someone who deserves all the respect in this world. That, it is an honor to be loved by Ferish Asiah.

Mabuti na lang talaga at maayos daw ang usapan nila ni dad. I thought it would be hard since my father can sometimes be intimidating when it comes to people who gets close to me. I am still amazed with how she can confidently talk with my father.

She didn't tell me the details of what they talked about, but I trust them. Hindi naman siguro magsasabi si dad ng masama kay Ferish, dahil alam niyang importante siya sa akin.

"I love you." I tenderly whispered in her ear and hugged her tighter in my arms.

"Babe, babe, bakit mo 'ko pinapanood?"

Nagbaba ako ng tingin sa kan'ya at hindi pa siya nagmumulat ng mga mata pero antok na antok naman ang itsura niya. She yawned, looking adorable. Sumiksik siya sa leeg ko kaya hinalikan ko ulit siya sa ulo. Para siyang baby na naglalambing sa ginagawa niya.

"I can't sleep."

"Bakit? May nightmare ka ba?" She asked, looking alarmed. Nagmulat na siya ng mga mata at nag-aalala akong tinignan.

I shook my head and gently caressed her back to calm her down. She is always worried about my well-being, and I am beyond grateful to have someone who always care for me.

"Hindi lang ako makatulog. It's okay." I reassured her with a soft tone. "It feels like everything is going smoothly. I just can't help... but to think that something bad might happen." I sighed. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil alam kong hindi naman dapat ako nag-iisip ng gano'ng bagay.

I somehow feel embarrassed because I am thinking of that way when I know that I shouldn't. It's not that I want something bad to happen, but, I am just aware that after all the happiness that I feel, there will be a pain much greater than the happiness that I am savouring now.

The price of this happiness... must be an unbearable pain again.

"Bakit mo 'yon naisip?"

Bumangon siya pero nanatili akong nakahiga sa kama. Naupo siya sa tabi ko at masuyong hinawakan ako sa pisngi para iharap sa kan'ya. I sighed when I felt her warmth on my skin, calming all the waves of violent emotions in my mind and heart.

"Palagi kasing gano'n ang nangyayari. Being happy means that there is a price to be paid for. A huge price." I sighed again, overthinking. "It is sometimes hard to be happy, because I know that it will be taken away from me again."