Sebastian Stan and His Character Imagines

yeah, you said forever. // Bucky Barnes

because I love the song driver's license... and Bucky Barnes. And I thought ya know, the song is popular... and sad:)

"Cause you were so excited for me
To finally drive up to your house
But today I drove through the suburbs
Crying 'cause you weren't around"

He got his own apartment, away from everyone. And only told you and Steve of his new place. While he appreciated the Avengers, and all of the opportunities they gave him. Bucky was quiet, he enjoyed his people and that was that. The first three months of him living away was so nice, you could make small trips to see him and you didn't have to worry about a thing. And of course, you saw him on missions. It wasn't long distance feeling at all. But soon, you were on missions a lot, you were too jet lag to drive, and he wasn't making an effort to see you much these days anymore. It was the beginning of the end.

She's so much older than me
She's everything I'm insecure about
Yeah, today I drove through the suburbs
'Cause how could I ever love someone else?

The new girl, she was joining missions and taking your place when you were somewhere else. Bucky liked her, immediately you sensed the connection with them. And when you called him out, a fiery argument came forth. But you didn't want to argue, and you assumed that he didn't want to either.
"Fucking hell, Y/N! I don't have a thing for Rossi! She's an agent, she's nice and funny and doesn't distract me when we're on missions!" Bucky groaned as he brushed his hair back with his hand. Silence filled the room now, your already prominent discomfort and insecurities taking over ever crevice of your mind.

And I know we weren't perfect but I've never felt this way for no one
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I'm gone
Guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street

And while the leaves fell from the trees, that fall. You and Bucky fell with them. Too many arguments, too much doubt, too much of everything. The breakup was over a letter, he dropped off in front of your door. A fucking letter, the big strong Winter Soldier wasn't even man enough to say he wasn't in love anymore to your face. The relationship wasn't good, especially in the end. It was brutal, draining and yet so full of love. While the tears dropped from your eyes, and onto the paper where his scribbled handwriting wrote out the goodbyes of your shaky relationship, you couldn't help but think of all the love letters that were stashed in old shoe boxes, behind pictures, crammed into the back of a phone case. Your favorite one, he wrote it on your one year anniversary, reminded you all too much of the goodbye letter. The word love, had drifted throughout the whole sheet of loose leaf paper.

"Dear Y/N!
I love you, and I'm so glad we met. Because without you, I'm not sure if I'd be as strong and determined as I have been. Truly, doll. You've shaped me to be better. These sound like wedding vows kind of, that's fun to think about. And I know you do think about it, you have that silly thing on your phone filled with future plans. But, it's exciting to you. So it's exciting to me. One year down, and forever to go. Keep being beautiful for me, eh?"

-Love, James 'Bucky' Barnes

He said forever then, but who knew in a matter of five months, forever didn't mean shit. And you were left sobbing, like a pathetic loser. All because of your own insecurities.

I still see your face in the white cars, front yards
Can't drive past the places we used to go to
'Cause I still fuckin' love you

Every night, as you drive home, to the office or even to grab some greasy fast food. Bucky is everywhere, he's in the park pushing you on the swing right before you fall. He's standing over your shoulder at the bench in the center of Central Park, surprising you with food. Bucky and you, your memories were imprinted on every damn thing you owned. And god how you hated it, but god how you loved him still.

  I still hear your voice in the traffic, we're laughing
Over all the noise
God, I'm so blue, know we're through

It had been 2 months, you stopped going on the big group missions, you stopped trying to see him in random locations. Bucky was still so evident in your life, and nothing made you hate him more than that. Breakups weren't supposed to hurt this bad, that's what they told you. But they didn't know what it was like with Bucky, how gentle, free and happy you were. They didn't understand, and never would they. It wasn't worth explaining, not to the useless people who gave useless opinions. Though, that was how it went. Nothing is forever, except for the haunting memories, the ones you want to dwindle into the abyss seem to stay forever. While the rest of you fades into darkness, those memories ignite like fire dancing with kerosene.

Yeah, you said forever, now I drive alone past your street.