Sebastian Stan and His Character Imagines

stuck//bucky barnes

this was a mix of two requests!!

it happened so quickly. the feeling of the cool water piercing into every pore of your body. this mission was going to be hard. everyone knew this. you knew this, bucky knew this, everyone. bucky reminded himself to keep an extra pair of eyes on you, but he looked away for a second. one simple second. one of the men who were fighting against the group of you, shoved you into the ice, which fell through causing you to slip under the thick sheets. the shock maybe is what knocked you out, or the hit from the fall down. lord who knows, but the second the shrill sound of the ice cracking and diving into the water made its way to bucky's ears, he whipped around. now, he dove into the ice cold himself. frantically feeling around for your body in the below freezing water. it was dark, a sullen blue. a void of water. when he finally found just a smidgen of fabric from your jacket, he scooped you up and quickly made his way to the surface. there, steve stood and helped him up. whatever was left of the bandit of men must have slipped away rather quickly. steve lifted you in his arms and sprinted for the jet. bucky close behind. bucky was all over the place, his mind this way and that way. but so focused all at the same time.
"steve..." bucky murmured lowly. "we have to make sure she's okay." steve just nodded, not wanting to upset or cause anymore distress among his friend. once everyone was ready, the jet took off for new york again. natasha and vision were at your side, helping to stabilize you, whatever they could. steve had pulled bucky back from you, trying to press into his mind that you were okay and that he needed to worry about getting his own body temperature back. nat mentally decided that if you did die, right here. right now. she would take you to the hospital, tell bucky you were okay and break it to him slowly. because if you fell, bucky wouldn't be far behind you.

"she's in a comatose state, she suffered a hard fall and an even harder shock. she'll be awake hopefully soon, but it's possibly a good time to start thinking of optio-" the doctor couldn't even stammer out the rest of his statement before bucky was up out of the uncomfortable oak chairs.
"a good time?! are you fucking-" steve quickly pulled him back. "she has to wake up, y/n has to wake up." bucky finished his outrage with a broken whisper.
the rest of the team fell back after that, giving bucky the alone time he so badly needed with you.

his rough hands grazed your soft ones slowly, he traced silly little patterns across them. if you were awake you'd be dozing back to sleep right now. it always would snap you right back to sleep. bucky didn't want you to sleep anymore, and after seeing you like this for a week he selfishly never wanted you to sleep again. but, you still were out. the doctor said you were recovering, but maybe just on the inside because you still were glued to the bed like a forgotten corpse. it haunted bucky. it was like all the time he had with you was slowly slipping away. everything he had planned, never the wedding type but if you woke up right now and asked. well, that man would have a venue picked out by the next hour. tears streamed down his face as he watched you, lie so still... so lifeless.
"buck..." steve whispered, carefully placing an arm on his friends shoulder. "you need to rest, eat.. do something besides sit and stare. go back to the headquarters just for an hour, maybe two. it will eat you up if you continue to watch." bucky closed his eyes tight and held your hand.
"you don't get it.. i sat and promised her before we left.. i promised her we would be okay after. and now.. and now this? this is what i promised for her? the safety i told her i would give her, means nothing. i can't lose her.. i can't. she's- she's my life. she's my everything!" he said loudly, wiping his eyes quickly. he was a stone cold man most days,emotions barely hitting him and if they did it was like a truck going 100 mph into a brick wall. steve just quietly listened, knowing that if bucky didn't let his emotions through, they would consume his every moment until the day he finally would burst.

another two weeks went by, he barely left your side. tears didn't fall often for him anymore. smiles would crack when he would tell you something silly that reminded him of you. frowns would curve his lips when he mentioned the ugly patterned furniture in the hospital or the sub par food they served. and when the tears did come, creeping into the corners of his icy eyes. they flowed for a while, just a long while. sadness was relevant, it was rational and it was so real for him. and anyone who knew you. the doctor had announced that goodbyes should be in order soon, you were just wasting a bed. and no matter how much protesting bucky could ensure to the hospital, it still didn't matter. you hadn't budged in nearly a month, no matter how bucky bargained with the gods above.
it was early evening, bucky hadn't slept in a while. but he felt that he would be sleeping much more once you had passed on. and that you would be thankful for, wherever you ended up. you didn't like when he worried, or strained himself or beat himself up for little things. something you scolded him on time and time again, maybe he would learn or wouldn't.
"oh y/n.. my beautiful y/n." bucky whispered as he ran his fingers through your hair. "you're my shining star in a world full of dark.. and i would be miserable without you.. i am miserable without you. and i think.. i think maybe i will be for a long while. i'm sorry i couldn't protect you always, or always keep a beaming smile on your face.. but that never meant i didn't love you with whatever is left of my ragged heart. you tried so hard to fix it, and god with how stubborn you were.. you almost did. but.. enough about me. this is all about you, i'm sure you love that." he muttered and let out a weak chuckle as he closed his watery eyes and placed his head against your forehead. "you are my love of this life, the next and whatever is after that. i promise you that. god... god i love you so much. and i'll miss you so much. forever and-" he paused to stifle a sob. he couldn't pause the tears any longer. the final build up of emotions creeping out of him. he burst into a sob and laid his head on your chest, soaking the hospital gown in salty tears. he laid there for what seemed like hours, though it probably was only a few minutes.
"j-jesus buck." you mumbled weakly against his head which was close to your face. "you spew wedding vows and then slobber all on me. can you get me some water?" you asked. the second bucky had heard that sweet voice, he shot up. there you were, awake! your eyes lit up, your lips dry but curved in a crooked smile and you.. you were awake. he grinned and wiped his face with the back of his hand. "oh! oh my goodness.. oh my. you're.. you're alive.. i mean you were alive but awake and alive and- oh jesus." he whispers. you smile weakly and raise a brow confused.
"of course i was alive.. i don't.. i don't even recall what happened. i heard you yell.. and then it was cold. it so cold." you shiver just imagining the moment the icy water pierced through your body. bucky nodded solemnly and shook his head, quickly retrieving you some water.
"you're awake, and here now. and nothing will take that away. let's not think about that day, and only reflect on what's to come... us. forever and no- no more missions for you."
you perked up at the sound of that. "what?!" you said the dryness in your throat sending a burning sensation all the way down to the pit of your stomach. you slowly drank the water and cleared your throat.
"one little accident isn't worth quitting.." you say curtly. not meaning to come off with an edge. bucky sighed and shook his head. he stood slowly and moved to the chair next to the bed.
"this is an argument for another time.. another day. today is a day to let you relax and celebrate." he mumbled and glanced up at you to see you smiling wide.
"i do believe that is a very valid point." your swiftly placed your arms out and he very delicately grabbed your hands pulling himself up. you made enough room for the both of you on the bed, and he eagerly climbed up beside you. bucky left a tiny kiss upon your cheek, right beside your eye. this caused your wide grin to widen more.
"i love you, hun." you declared quietly
he just hummed gently and gave you another small kiss.
"and i love you."