Don't Die - Levi x Reader {Book 1}

Chapter 45

(Y/N) was grateful that her little white lie to Levi hadn't been a lie at all. The tea hadn't made her sick. If it had, she was sure that the thought of cleaning out her room would have her keeled over right about now.

She and Levi were standing outside her door, (Y/N)'s hand on the knob. She could already feel herself shaking. The thought of entering that room with the intention of uncovering all of the memories she had tried to avoid for so long... it had her in shambles.

Just when she was about to back away, to tell Levi she couldn't do it, she felt his arms slide around her waist.

"Open the door, (Y/N). I know you can."

(Y/N) trembled in his grip. It just felt so... impossible.

Levi placed a kiss on her neck.

"Open it, (Y/N). I'm right here."

Her breaths were shallow and irregular. Could she do it? Could she really do it?

Levi tightened his arms around her.

"(Y/N)."

Her hand twisted the knob and the door creaked open. She'd done it.

Levi kissed her neck again but didn't let go of her waist. He wasn't sure she'd be able to stay standing without his support.

(Y/N) stared inside of her room. She felt like she was being transported back to that first day when she'd had to face Tika's half, knowing that her best friend would never return to it. The emptiness of the space seemed so... hopeless.

(Y/N) felt Levi's lips moving across her skin and she was suddenly brought back to reality. This wasn't that first, horrible day. It had been months. And right now, things weren't hopeless. They were anything but hopeless. Levi was behind her, ready to help her move forward, to start a new life. Her mind was playing tricks on her, trying to drag up all of the trauma she'd pushed so deep down. It didn't matter. She was going to do this. She had to do this.

Little by little, (Y/N) felt her own legs starting to support her again until she was fully standing on her own. She felt Levi's hands drop from her waist and instead they moved to the small of her back. He was ready when she was.

(Y/N) took a deep breath. Once she stepped in there was no going back.

Finally, her foot moved forward and she walked inside.

(Y/N) shuddered again when she entered. The room suddenly seemed so... small, like it was suffocating her.

She closed her eyes and focused on her breathing, repeating in her head that she could do this. Levi was right behind her, so close that she could feel the heat radiating off him. As long as he stayed there, she could do this.
Her eyes opened and she turned to him as she opened her mouth.

"There should be some empty boxes in the closet that we can use to carry things. Let's start with the dresser."

Levi nodded and hurried to find the boxes that (Y/N) had referred to. After a bit of rummaging around, he found them. There weren't nearly enough to fit everything but it was a start. As long as they could get everything out the door, they could take as many trips as they needed to. It was being inside the room that caused pain.

Levi walked over to the dresser, boxes in hand. (Y/N) had already opened a drawer and she had a pile of clothes in her hands ready to be put away.

Levi set a box at her feet and watched as she carefully set the clothes inside, squishing them down so there would be room for more. As soon as she'd finished with that stack she was back in the dresser, taking out as many things as she could as quickly as she could.