Don't Die - Levi x Reader {Book 1}

Chapter 15

Training was slow and agonizing. To (Y/N), every second felt like an eternity and even the feeling of the summer breeze in her hair didn't grant her a reprieve. Today was standard 3DMG training and the endless drills of formations and battle tactics had (Y/N)'s mind wandering to more important things. Or maybe just one important thing.

(Y/N) had spent the entire morning distracted and her peers had started to notice. Kills that were usually done flawlessly were just a bit on the shallow side and responses to commands were just a bit delayed. Kate had been the first to address (Y/N)'s inattentiveness but (Y/N) had simply brushed it away, muttering something about having a headache and not getting enough sleep.

After the endless amounts of flipping, dodging, jumping, and drilling, lunch time finally arrived and, for the first time in a very long while, (Y/N) felt scared. Levi had yet to show his face or grace her with his presence and (Y/N) had grown really and truly scared for his well-being. He could have been hurt, dying, bleeding. Or maybe he had run away and she would never see him again. Or maybe he was really just being an idiot and ditching training. No matter what the real situation was, it didn't change the fact that (Y/N) could feel a gaping hole in her chest. Her fear of the unknown was eating her from the inside out and she could feel both her energy and her patience draining with each passing minute.

(Y/N) inhaled deeply, focusing on patching the pit in her heart. She needed to find Levi. It was now or never and if it was going to be now she needed to be focused and centered.

Closing her eyes, (Y/N) allowed herself one long pause to ground herself. She needed her emotions gone. The hole in her chest just wouldn't do and in a situation like this, her childhood lessons would come in handy. Feelings were messy, subjective, and in some situations, such as this one, unnecessary. At this moment, (Y/N) had a clear mission with a clear goal. She would count to three and when she opened her eyes, she would have only her objective in mind and nothing would be clouding her judgement. She would be logical and clear, but most of all she would be emotionless.

One.

Two.

Three.

(Y/N) inhaled and snapped her eyes open. Her feet moved forward immediately and she moved through the crowd of soldiers precisely, avoiding bumping any of them as they made their way to the Mess Hall for lunch. (Y/N) vaguely registered Kate calling after her but she kept her eyes straight ahead. The dark-haired girl was the least of her concerns at the moment.

(Y/N)'s steps were determined as she made her way to the most obvious location that Levi could be hiding in. The place to start was the barracks. (Y/N) didn't really give a second thought to entering the male dorms. Everyone was at training, so it wasn't like there would be anyone to stop her.

(Y/N) moved hurriedly but meticulously along the dirt path and stopped only to throw open the door of the wooden building. She scoffed. No one had even bothered to lock the door.

(Y/N) stepped in, following the route to Levi's room that she had taken only once before. She'd taken care to memorize the way last time. She had figured it might come in handy to know where the troublemaker resided and she had been right.

Easily navigating the twists and turns of the hallways, (Y/N) finally came upon the room she had been searching for. Without hesitation, she reached for the brass knob and turned it, flinging open the door with enough force to make it smack against the inner wall with a loud crack.

It didn't take long for (Y/N)'s eyes to land on the two people within. Furlan was sitting on the bed to the right, the sheets perfectly folded without a single wrinkle except for the ones that formed around where he put pressure on the bed. On the other side of the room, Isabel sat in nearly the exact same position, the only difference being that she had one foot propped up on the knee of her opposite leg. (Y/N) took a moment to notice the bucket of suds in the corner as well as the strong scent of bleach in the air. They'd been cleaning.