Don't Die - Levi x Reader {Book 1}

Chapter 58

WARNING: Sad smut :'(

(Y/N) held on to Levi for dear life as they stood in the silence and darkness of their room. They'd just gotten back from the pond, and the lock had clicked into place just a few seconds ago. But even just the short time it had taken for the door to close had seemed like too long. Just the one second that Levi had needed to turn away to lock it had felt like an eternity and as soon as he'd finished, (Y/N) had been back in his arms.

He'd carried her back from the pond. Not because she needed help walking, but because he couldn't stand to have her anywhere but on his body. She hadn't protested, so he'd assumed she felt the same.

Now they were back in their room, but she was still crying, silent tears falling down her face. Levi wasn't sure if they were tears of happiness or sadness. Probably both.

He just held her as her fingers desperately tightened in his hair and her body pressed into him. He never wanted her to let go.

But she would.

At some point, she would let go... and then she would leave.

Levi felt a rush of agony go through him and the only thing he could do was hold her tighter.

"(Y/N)..."

(Y/N) could hear the pain in his voice and it caused even more tears to spill from her eyes. She didn't know how to help, how to make it better. It all just hurt too much.

She kept her fingers in Levi's hair but gently pulled away from his chest just enough to look up at him. She could see that he had his own tears threatening to fall and the sight only made her more desperate to help him somehow. But nothing seemed like it would be enough. This pain was too deep, too intense. (Y/N) knew that there wasn't anything that would make it go away.

But if they couldn't make it go away... then she wanted him to know just how much she would miss him, just how much she loved him, just how much she needed him. And they'd already used up all the words they had for the day. She'd already told him with her voice how much she loved him, and he'd even managed to get out a proposal. They'd done enough talking. Now it was time for showing. They were better at that, anyway.

(Y/N) didn't hesitate even for a second. Her lips found his and immediately she brought her hands to his face and then pulled his lips to hers.

Levi knew what she was asking for and he didn't even have to think for a second to know that he was going to give her whatever she wanted.

He was grateful for the opportunity she was giving him. He'd managed to get out the words he'd needed to in order to get the ring on her finger, but... he knew that he could still show her so much more.

Levi kept their kisses gentle, slow, but still intense as his hands wrapped around the back of her neck. Tonight was about... saying goodbye. And he didn't think that either of them wanted something too heated. They both just wanted to be close, as close as possible.

Levi kissed her for a moment longer, locking his tongue with hers as they continued to grip at each other. But he didn't want to keep her waiting too long. He was going to take things slow, but wasn't going to torture her.

Levi's hand found the buttons on her coat and he undid them one by one until he could slide the thing off her shoulders. By the time it had hit the ground, he had already found the hem of her shirt and sweater, pulling them up smoothly until (Y/N) lifted her arms and the clothing slid over her head. He paused for a moment to look into her eyes, admiring the way they were shining in the glimmers of moonlight coming in through the window. The sight left him breathless.