Dear Janet, You're Ugly

A Dilemma

Janet's POV

If someone had told me I would be kissing my childhood friend in the middle of a forest I wouldn't have believed them. The kiss seemed to last forever until we needed to come up for air. And when Erin finally pulled away, he rested his forehead against mine.

We panted like dogs as a comfortable silence ran over both of us. He lifted my face in his large hands and began to stroke my cheek. "We should try and find at least two more things" he joked. I giggled lightly shocking myself, since when was I ever one to giggle like a school girl?!

I pulled away out of his embrace, ready to continue down the path until he pulled me back. He wrapped me in his arms and began to press feather-like kisses across my face. I laughed lightly pushing his face away.

"Somebody might see us" I whisper yelled creating distance. My complaints went unnoticed as he held me close. It was then I knew it felt good to be in his warm embrace. But it was also frightening how safe I felt and I could feel the walls I had tried so hard to build kept crumbling down.

A drizzle of rain began to pelt down on us. I instantly pulled my hoodie on afraid that the rain would wash away the layers upon layers of foundation I had on. We decided it would be best to head back to the festival even with only finding one item on the list.

He grabbed my hand, tugging me back to the front of the forest. Only a few people were there who had also given up early. I kept my distance from Erin, tugging my hands out from his grasp.

He didn't say anything as we stood side by side with the rest of the students. His face was blank and the from just a few seconds ago was already gone. I felt embarrassed as I kept my gaze on the ground. I wasn't sure what to say.

Today had surely been eventful. But no matter how many times I replayed our kiss I felt a sense of giddiness. It was the first time I felt such a way about someone. It frightened yet excited me in ways I hadn't imagined.

I didn't expect that I could be falling for my childhood friend. I was still unsure what this all meant. Was I truly falling for Erin? Even if that was the case there was still a slight chance that he didn't feel the same.

There was a small possibility that he could be hiding the way he truly felt about me. While I was having an internal battle with myself. A hysterical Millie Anderson was screaming her head off. Her posse of minions was holding her up, her left foot had been wrapped in a red cloth.

Erin quickly came to her aid scooping her up in his arms. Everyone gathered around to see what was happening. The coach examines her foot and I almost passed out when I saw it was completely turned in the opposite direction.

A growing headache pounded in my head and I felt the need to distance myself from all of the commotions. I pushed my way through the small crowd and out of the festival. I decided to just go home since it was most likely going to happen anyway.

I silently walked home as my mind seemed to linger on Erin. That moment in the forest made my heart pound and little butterflies danced in my stomach. What would become of us now?

In my mind, I knew a part of me was willing to try things out. But the other part of me was telling me to keep my distance. The constant fear of rejection lingered over me like a dark cloud.

As I laid in bed that night the fear never left. There was still one major hiccup that I failed to think about. Erin was currently dating Millie, I silently prayed no one had seen us in the forest. That in itself would only prove to cause more chaos.

I shut my eyes tight as sleep soon took over.