Dear Janet, You're Ugly

Rocks At My Window

Janet's POV

That night I didn't go down for dinner. I refused to face Ms. Freckles face of disappointment. I slightly regretted my actions early, but I would never sit there and say I wouldn't do it again. After several hours had passed with me pacing my room back and forth. I heard the front door shut.

I watched as the expensive grey car exited our driveway. I breathed a sigh of relief. A scary thought came to mind as I prayed he hadn't told her about the letters. I wanted to be the one to tell her and explain that this wasn't what I hoped would happen.

Even with the thought that I could have a biological family. I wasn't ready to move forward with it at all. Apart from me felt content with where I was in terms of my life. I already had plans after I graduated next year.

None of those plans required me to get to know my biological family. I had dreams and goals and savings account that I needed to keep building up. And yeah maybe I shouldn't have runoff without hearing what the man had to say.

But to be fair he had caught me off guard. He showed up without permission and sat on our couch with this big-ass smile as if he did nothing wrong. It irked my nerve thinking about it as I laid on my bed sprawled out like a starfish. I was starting to get hungry but I was scared to face Ms. Freckles.

At around midnight I quietly crept down to the kitchen. I grabbed a pack of Oreos and decided to heat some milk up in the microwave until I saw a plate already in there. A nice-sized lasagna laid wrapped nicely which I presumed had to be mine.

I heated it quickly and took my food to my room. I devoured it in seconds patting my full tummy. I placed my empty plate on my desk then got ready for bed. I did my daily night routine which consisted of me throwing on a large tee with tiny shorts.

I washed my face clean and brushed my wild mane of hair. I then hopped into bed under the impression that I wouldn't be able to sleep. But I was wrong because as soon as my head touched the pillow I was out.

I awoke around 2 in the morning when I heard something tap against my window. At first, I thought it had to be the large tree that sat next to my window. But as I rubbed my eyes removing the sleep out of them I saw a tiny pebble fly against my window.

Suddenly feeling freaked out, I quickly got out of bed and slowly crept towards the window. I grabbed a random shoe just in case it happened to be some feral animal.

Holding my breath I got closer to the window and saw the outline of a human shadow. Puzzled I dropped the shoe, the figure had on a large hoodie with the hood covering his face.

I gasped a little too loud when my eyes saw who exactly it was. "What the hell are you doing here at 2 in the morning Erin"! I whisper yelled silently looking over my shoulder.

He shot me a toothy grin. "Open the door we need to talk" he motioned his hands to the front of the house. I silently cursed myself before closing the window back up. I hurriedly made my way downstairs, careful not to make too much noise.

I opened the front door. Erin leaned against the door frame his lips pursed in deep thought. A gentle breeze passed by causing me to shiver slightly. "Why are you here"? I asked again gently nibbling my bottom lip.

He grabbed my pale hands in his large ones and then pulled me in for a hug. "You weren't answering my texts earlier. I got worried that something was wrong. Amy was worried too". He gently swayed us back and forth, my face pressed against his large chest.

It almost made me cry. To think that this would be the last time we could ever be like this. I reluctantly pulled out of his embrace, my eyes meeting his almond ones. Tufts of his dark hair peeked through the hood of his sweater.

" Im fine. You didn't need to come all the way here at 2 in the morning" I said with a frown. He gently shrugged grabbing my hand again. It was as if he needed to be touching me at all times. It warmed my heart but at the same time, it broke it as well.

I had an internal battle in my head. I needed to end things now. Whatever this was we had going on. It needed to stop. "Erin...we can't do this" I stuttered lightly. He frowned wrinkles appearing on his forehead.

"What cant we do"? He asked tilting his head to the side. He resembled a cute puppy at that moment. I felt guilty delivering the sad news that we couldn't pursue anything more than a regular friendship.

It seemed he already had an idea from my facial expression. It was enough to give him the sad news that I couldn't bear to deliver. At first, his sad almond eyes resembled mine. But then it was as if something within him clicked.

" There is no way im letting you go Janet. No way". A sudden fire of determination lit up in his eyes. It warmed my heart but it also made me afraid for what was to come. There was no use in pleading for him to succumb to the reality of the situation.

He had made his mind up. When all was said and done, it looked as if we would be going to "war".

Together