Dear Janet, You're Ugly

Doing The Right Thing

Janet's POV

The holiday break soon passed and school resumed as normal. New Years' had been a breeze and passed over quickly. I rang in the new year with a large tub of vanilla ice cream in hand.  It was a perfect way to welcome a fresh start or at least I hoped it would be a fresh start.

I entered the school on a good note. No sign of Millie Anderson and her posse so I was in the clear. Amy has been upset since I never stopped by for Christmas like I said I would. I wasn't one to beg so I let her have her fit and soon she was over it.

Loud whispers filled the hallways as everyone talked about their holiday break. A huge party was thrown to ring in the new year and of course, I  didn't go. That being said that didnt stop wild Any from going and telling me all about it later.

As if I cared

As the day pushed on everyone still seemed to be talking about the stupid party. I sat in my usual corner in the library as two girls who sat at a nearby table gossiped away.

"Omg did you see the way, Millie and Erin were making out" ?!

"I know I was so jealous!! You know he used to be so ugly but now he's super hot! I'd hit it if I had a shot" !

I felt the pit of my stomach drop as the two girls gossiped. The panda necklace felt heavy around my neck and I had the sudden urge to rip it off. I gathered my things and made my way to grab lunch.

Erin and Amy were nowhere to be found. I had thought they ditched school for today but was surprised to see them already at a table in the cafeteria. Amy sat proudly on Cody's lap as she laughed at something he said.

Erin sat on the table in a relaxed position. Neither of the siblings had noticed me yet and I was praying they didn't. I wanted to be alone today and especially after hearing about what happened at the New Year's party.

I grabbed a turkey sandwich with bottled water. Normal chatter around the cafeteria grew louder as students made their way in. I turned about to leave only to walk right into a hard chest. I frowned then looked up at the culprit.

Of course, it had to be none other than Erin. "Why are you standing in the way" I growled already feeling annoyed. He grabbed my lunch and pulled on my hand.

"Come sit with us". He pulled me gently all eyes were on us as if we were actors playing out the first scene of a play. I stopped short making him unable to move any further.

" I'll be eating alone. Go back to your table" I mumbled snatching my arm away and walking around him. I felt the heated stares on my back as I hurriedly exited the cafeteria. Erin was hot on my heels his dark hair bounced with every step as he tried to stop me.

"Janet wait. What's wrong? Why have you been avoiding me"? He growled pulling towards the end of the hall. A few students turned our way looking with curiosity. I folded my arms, a deep frown on my face.

I was a fool. I don't know what I thought would happen between him and me. " I want you to stay away from me Erin. And take this stupid necklace" I ripped the necklace off from around my neck. It dangled in my hands as the look of hurt on his face deepened.

"I- I don't understand. I-I thought we were finally getting somewhere-"

"Well, you thought wrong" I interrupted shoving the necklace in his hands. My neck felt empty as I could no longer feel the old metal against my neck. I couldn't bear to see the hurt on his face any longer

I kept telling myself this needed to be done. I was incapable of having friends or keeping them. Deep down I was angry but at what I hadn't the slightest idea. I turned about to leave when the tremor in his voice has me holding back tears.

"I'm done Janet. I'm done chasing after someone who doesn't give a fuck about me. I won't bother you anymore". Those were his final words before his loud footsteps retracted away from me.

I did the right thing...

Right?