Dear Janet, You're Ugly

Stay In Your Lane

Janet's POV

Do you ever have those oh shit moments where you regret everything leading up to that moment? You almost wish for the ground to swallow you whole so that you dont suffer any longer. You beg for something else to happen because you didn't ever think you would put yourself in such a predicament.

I felt as if ice penetrated right through my heart. The very organ that pumped blood through my body had enough. If looks could kill I would have been buried by now.

That was the power of the Greco look. It was a living hell the time I had spent with them. The Greco triplets were always trouble and I was always the one taking the fall. I was so happy they moved me out of their home.

I wouldn't have survived had I stayed.

Barnie Greco had been the most decent one out of the triplets. She had been the one to silently laugh at my misery but she never did partake in it. She looked rather menacing with her blonde golden locks tied up in a messy bun.

Her icy blue eyes were red due to obsessive crying. Her pale skin was all red and blotchy and her lips looked slightly blue. It was freezing out and she had no coat to keep warm. I sighed before unwrapping the brown scarf I managed to grab on the way out.

"I dont need your stupid charity"! She spat throwing the scarf in my face. I sighed before wrapping the scarf back around my neck. You couldn't save everyone.

My eyes shifted to the white stick in her hand. One end was covered with a pink top and I knew instantly it was a pregnancy test. "You'll freeze out here" I spoke my eyes still tracing the contraption in her hand.

She caught my eyes staring at it before shoving it in her pants pocket. "If you tell anyone about this I will ruin you" she threatened standing up from the swing. She was taller than I was and I could see the small bump her belly adorned.

She had to have just found out today.

"I have my problems to deal with Greco" I snapped back with annoyance. It was just like the Grecos to think the world revolved around them. She shoved past me exiting the park not daring to glance back.

I sighed rubbing a hand down my face. I suddenly felt tired and I sluggishly made my way back home quickly. I made myself a nice hot cup of hot chocolate while I scrolled through Youtube.

I woke up the next morning tired than ever. I through on a green hoodie and dark washed jeans. I then braided my hair back before leaving for school. Barnie Greco had been absent as I saw only her sister following Millie around like a minion.

When lunch rolled around I grabbed a simple turkey sandwich and an apple juice. Amy hadn't been in school since she had to head back home for a family emergency. That didn't mean she didn't text me non stop since she left.

That left Erin all alone to annoy the living crap out of me. I still was confused as to why he didn't leave with Amy. But it wasn't my business so I kept quiet. I decided to eat outside on the bleachers for lunch.

A soccer game was already in motion as I took a seat. Erin's long body ran across the field instantly making goal after goal. I shoved half a sandwich in my mouth when the whistle was blown.

His eyes caught mine and I didn't miss the huge smile that broke across his face. He looked like a doofus skipping his way towards the bleachers. He hopped over the fence easily before stopping in front of me.

"Didn't know you were here. I'm starved" he beamed before grabbing the rest of my lunch. I frowned as he shoved the whole sandwich into his mouth.

"Listen. After work what do you say we go out somewhere? We could see a movie or go out to eat" he ruffled his sweaty hair a bit. I saw a red hue paint his cheeks and I suddenly felt awkward.

"I have things to do". I declined,  standing up and getting ready to leave. He grabbed hold of my arm forcing me to look at him. His breath fanned my face and I knew we were wearing matching looks of embarrassment.

"For once Janet. Just do this for me" he pleaded silently. I couldn't do it. I spent too long building my walls and I wasn't about to let them crumble at the hands of Erin.

I didnt say a word. I ran away without looking back because I didnt want to see the face of disappointment. It was the reason why I never let anyone get close to me.

I wasn't going to start now.