Dear Janet, You're Ugly

He Comes Back

Janet's POV

I never expected to see him again. Not even for a second did I think he would show his face again. I had built this wall over myself that it was impossible to let go of. At one point in time he meant everything to me. And maybe he still did believe or not, but I couldn't let go of the feeling of betrayal.

It plagued my mind everytime I saw his face and really I had tried to move past that. I'd stalk his social media, trying to see just how much he had changed. And boy was I shocked, he was no longer the dumpling I knew him to be.

Over the past couple of years he had dyed his hair multiple colors. He even tried different color contacts almost looking like a kpop star. He lost all of his baby fat and what now stood in his place was a tall lean and muscular  guy.

He looked so different that if I hadn't been looking closely I wouldn't have recognized him. He posted small clips of him working out, and he seemed genuinely happy. Something I couldn't relate to at all, I envied him to some extent.

It started off as any typical day, I got dressed in my usual black leggings and a large oversized hoodie. I paired it with some all black vans, then I applied my foundation over my face. I let my dark brunette hair to air dry as I grabbed my bag.

I wasn't just your average looking girl. In fact I believed I was so far from beautiful, mostly because I had been told so many times. I was a beast in disguise, I was a monster in the eyes of others and I had to constantly live with that thought.

I knew deep down I wasn't anything worth looking at. Standing at 5'7 I was a walking monster with no figure. My skin was pale, flaky, and dry, I had lifeless hazel eyes and boring brown hair. And what made it worse was the fact that my birthmark covered my left side of my face.

It only got worse as I grew up. I started to hate myself, I hated who I was. Sometimes I'd ask why I was even created this way in the first place. It brought me back to thought of my birth parents who I knew very little about.

I clutched the locket around my neck tightly. Mrs. Doughberry had been the only closest mofher figure I've had. All I had left of her was this locket I carried everywhere. It reminded me that at some point of my life I had been truly loved.

I made my way to school throwing my things into my locker before heading to class. Morning classes were always slow, it was a habit of mine to glance at the clock every now and then. And once class was over I felt I could breathe again.

Now it was finally break time where we had a whole hour ourselves before lunch. I quietly doodled away in my notebook when I heard a petite red head girl beside me. "Have you seen the guy? He's so freaking hot I swear he has to be a model".

So that was what all the commotion was about. I rolled my eyes, typical of them to go boy crazy. We rarely ever got new students so when we did everyone acted as if it was the coolest thing on earth.

If anything I felt bad for the new student. Depending on there looks they'd be scrutinized by the entire student body. It was nerve wracking to think about, so if anything I pitied them greatly.

I got up to use the restroom which was very typical of me. I blamed myself so drinking large amounts of water back to back. Quickly doing my business, I dried my hands off and then walking out. I hadn't expected to hit a hard wall.

Rubbing my nose I was ready to yell out in anger when I heard a familiar voice. "Janet? Is that really you"? His deep voice rang in my ears causing my to shiver. I recognized that voice anywhere, even if it had been years.

Erin Akio

There he stood in all his glory. No longer a chubby dumpling. Now he was full of muscle, I hadn't expected him to pull me in his arms lifting me off my feet. "I can't believe it's really you! I've missed you" he cooed gently rocking us back and forth. It was then I noticed an asian girl who stared at us with a beaming smile.

Was she his girlfriend?

He finally put me down but refused to fully let me go. "Let me go... people are staring" I grumbled but he only grinned widely as if he had won the lottery. He wrapped an arm around my waist and pinched my right cheek.

"You've really grown up huh? You're even more tall than I remember" he teased poking my side a little. I squirmed at the amount of attention I was receiving.

"I have to get back to class" I shoved him a bit before dashing down the hall. Sweat began to pour down the sides of my face and I could practically feel the foundation coming off.

My heart raced faster than I would have liked it to. It all happened so fast, I wasn't sure whether it really happened. So he finally came back, after all these years... he was back. I had no idea how I felt, maybe a bit overwhelmed.

And just like that my world was no longer me and only me. No this time he would make sure I wasn't alone, and this time he would know all the things I truly felt when he left me.

When he left me to battle my dragons all on my own. I was a beast no longer tamed, he was the ring leader not knowing just how much his role played a huge part in my life.