Dear Janet, You're Ugly

Humiliation

Recap: Standing before me in crutches and the most sinister look ever was Millie Anderson. "Well well look who we have here. If it isn't the low-key whore" she sneered.

At that moment I wanted the ground to swallow me whole.

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I could have been chewed up and then spit out into some other universe and I wouldn't have cared. But at this exact moment in time...this was what I feared. Being ganged up on by my worse childhood bullies. One of which I took her boyfriend who just so happened to be my childhood best friend. I swear it all sounded like some weird movie.

Millie Anderson looked rather menacing in her cheerleader's getup. Her usual large afro was now in braids and she wore a large cast wrapped around her broken ankle. For someone who had unfortunately broken a bone in her body, she looked stunning. Her chocolate brown skin seemed fo glow under the ugly school fluorescent lights that cast against the soccer field.

I gulped deeply as they seemed to watch my every move. I was of course trying to plot out the best escape plan I could come up with. But they all resulted in me somehow toppling over them and then causing them to slam to the ground.

It was brutal of course. But in situations like this, it was either be eaten or...be eaten. There was no way around this none that I was aware of. I must have been completely in my head because I hadn't seen Mille get closer. She now stood in front of me, so close I could see her lips painted with a touch of gloss.

"I'm gone for a few weeks and you suddenly get the balls to stir shit up huh"! She clenched her face and gave me the famous Anderson glare. So sharp it could cut you in half.

I tried figuring out the best way to sound apologetic. Even though I wasn't really, things had just taken the course. I was not one to test the fate of who ended up with who. But ultimately I knew I had to be the bad guy in this. " I'm sorry Millie. Erin was going to tell you...but um... yeah-"

"Oh save it you monster! Do you think you can get away with this?! Your wrong, im going to make sure the entire school knows what a slut you are" she growled. And just when I thought she had done enough.

Nope

The next thing I knew, a cup of a cherry slushy was poured over my head. It dripped down my face and hair and of course, a small audience gathered around laughing at my misfortune. I ran out not once looking back, the sound of their laughter haunted me.

I didn't know for how long I had been running. All I knew was that I couldn't stop until I was far away from the humiliation. I let my feet carry wherever and when I finally did stop to take a breather I ended up in a park nearby my house.

I sat on one of the swings and lightly swayed back and forth. Trying to hold back the sudden urge to sob was proving difficult. I no longer held them back as I let out one of the ugliest cries ever.

I cried about the embarrassment I faced tonight

I cried about meeting my long lost family

I cried about letting Erin down

I cried about letting myself down. I was nothing but a loser no matter how much I tried. I would never amount to anything, why would Erin waste his time on me? Someone who resembled a beast, a monster. Why did my long-lost family want anything to do with me? What were they trying to prove?

It felt as if my life had taken a turn for the worst. And even though Erin had contributed to my happiness in my heart it still wasn't enough for me. All it would do is bring him down and his reputation. This was why it was best to stay alone.

At least then I wouldn't let anyone down. I wouldn't feel as guilty as I do right now even if Millie Anderson was a bitch. I don't know how long I had sat on that swing. But each time my phone rang I would ignore it.

Tonight just seemed to be one of those nights. Just then a tall black figure walked down the sidewalk walking what looked to be a dog. He began to walk towards me slowly before I could make out his face.

"Hello Janet"