Chapters of my life

Goodbye

A few weeks after our clubbing outing it was Ash's 1st birthday. We were having dinner at The Palm in downtown Los Angeles. Leo wore a grey suit with a grey vest and a marble designed tie to go with it. Alexander wore a navy-blue suit and a striped tie. Celest was put into her new dress from Milan. The dress was custom made from gold satin and black lace. Leo told her "You look so beautiful my princess.". I wore a scarlet red dress with a deep v and red laced bodice. While getting everyone into the car Leo whispered in my ear "I couldn't ask for a more beautiful wife, my queen.". 

Once everyone was buckled in, I slipped into the passenger seat and Leo drove of down the road. We arrived around 7:30 met with a crowd of paparazzi and cameras. I scooped up Ash from his car seat while Leo got Celest out of her seat. Alexander walked with Celest up to the front door and I tucked my spare arm under Leo's giving me strength to face the crowds. We finally made our way into the restaurant and joined everyone at the table. Dinner was amazing because we were given front row view of the city to watch the city slowly come alive. The restaurant staff brought out the cake we ordered for Ash's birthday. It was a simple cake with gold marble design around it. Smiles light up the room when Ash's little hands dug into the cake. The rest of the cake was divided up between everyone. 

Once the dinner was finished the employees loaded up the presents in the back of the car while I buckled Celest and Ash. They were both asleep after a long night. We were on the highway for less than 10 minutes before a car came straight towards us. While Leo tried to swerve my instincts kicked in and I put my arm in the way so that Alexander would not go flying forward. The impact of the crash was so hard that Leo and I were trapped. We sat in the car for nearly 20 minutes before the ambulance turned up. They took each of the kids out and checked them over before putting them in the back of the truck. Leo was next to get taken out. The paramedic working on my kids came up to me and said, "When you put your arm in the way stopping your son from moving you saved him from getting a concussion and future brain damage.". She grabbed my hand and squeezed it while saying "You are a good mother keeping your babies safe.". It took around an hour before the freed Leo's top half. They removed the wheel freeing him. Then they cut away the door before slowly sliding Leo out the side of the car. 

While they were loading him into the ambulance, they took a look at my situation. My legs were pinned by the dashboard. My thigh was pierced by the fender that curved in when the car crashed into us. I was drifting in and out of conscious because of the amount of blood I had lost. They tried to cut me out but I was crushed in there hard. The lady paramedic stood by the whole time. She informed Leo about my condition and how they would not be able to get me out of the wreck. Leo was wheeled over to me on the stretcher. He kissed me on the forehead with tears dripping down his cheeks. I made sure to wipe each one away. 

The lady held my hand to the very end and I did not even get the chance to get her name but I knew that I would look after her from above. I had finally drifted off losing conscious. My life flashed before my eyes like a movie. It first started off with my high school years showing all the parties and dumb stuff Ellie and I did together. Next came my years with Chad and Nevaeh. Our little house on the corner of a busy intersection and our small garden on the window seal. Some tough memories came up that I had buried deep in my mind. Leo came next. Most of the memories filled with joy while some were filled with hardship and endurance. Our wedding played in my mind. It felt so magical and brought back a lot of joy. My sweet baby angel Alexander came after the wedding. I felt the pain all again while watching him come into the world. His small cries coming from the nurse's arms sent relieve through my body again. Larissa and Hollie were up next with the amazing feeling of working with them. Multiple mission played in my head and the many outfits flashed through my mind. Celest came run through my mind. Her smile radiating pure happiness as she danced with Levi around the back yard. I really do hope they work out together. They are soulmates. My final child came next his contagious smile was transferred to my face. Ash brought mischievous and excitement back to the home. His would get into everything destroying what ever he could but he was so cute that I struggled to tell him off. My life was over in a matter of seconds. The last thing I heard was "Heaven gained another angel today." the paramedic said it. I felt free once again as I left Earth. I fought every second till the very end until I could not anymore.

Leo POV (Play music if you want to add more emotion)

We were on the way home when it happened. I had my hand on my queen's lap while we cruised down the highway. I tried to swerve out the way but I was to late. The car hit the front of the car at full speed destroying the front of the car. My queen had already moved her arm before the car hit us the block Alexander from flying forward into the windscreen. Once the smoke had settled a bit, I check everyone making sure everyone was still conscious which they were luckily. I pulled my phone out of the side of the door. I called 911 and stayed on the line until the firefighters arrived. They removed the kids first from the crumbled wreck. We both told them that we would be fine and that they should go with the paramedics. 

Once they were in the back of the ambulance, I looked over to my wife to she her going in and out of consciousness and bleeding out. While they were getting me out, I watched my queen drift off several times. Once I was put onto a stretcher, they brought me to the kids. My eyes followed the firefighters try to cut my wife out. When they stepped away my heart sank to the bottom of my chest. She was just sitting in the car looking at the paramedic. I got taken over there to see her. She looked pale and sickly but still managed to put a smile on her face for me. I wish I could have taken all of her pain at that moment even if it killed me. My kids need their mother in their life. They needed her and I needed my queen because without her I had no strength. I knew then and there that there was no way I could help her. Instead I kissed her one last time on the forehead. This kiss was full of so much love but sorrow at the same time. Tears rolled down my cheeks landing on her hands. She wiped away every tear I had cried and made me promise to look after our kids and to teach them to forgive and love with no limits. I promised her that night that I would love our kids and be there more to help them. It was time to go but I could  not let go so I held onto her hand with all my power before they removed me from her. I called out to her one last time "I love you more than you could ever wrap your head around, my queen.". 

That was the last time I saw her before the funeral. Every night since then I had nightmares and struggled to fall asleep. If I had just been more concentrated, I could have saved her, She would still be here today helping me raise our kids instead she is up in heaven. My days are filled with memories of us together. Our wedding plays constantly in my head and her laugh when I got caught on her dress played in my ears like a constant ringing. I miss her like crazy. My queen is no longer in my arms. When I planned her funeral, I knew she would have loved it. I laid her to rest on 21st of April 20XX. She was laid in the same row as Marlene, her husband and Chad. My angel had left earth when we had least excepted it. Every week we go to her grave and water the flowers and clean her headstone. I had written on her headstone "A loving mother, a caring friend and my queen". She was what makes me strong for my kids. Her life was taken so soon but this means we have to live life without any regrets. I had 16 amazing years with her and I know some day I will meet the love of my life again.