Chapters of my life

Crash

The drive home I felt empty. Before I could turn the corner off our street my car was taken out by another car. As soon as the other car hit mine, I blanked out. I was slow to regain my conciseness but when I did, I heard a scream and a thumping in my ear. My eye slowly opened, and I lifted my hands to reveal cuts and blood pouring everywhere. I couldn't move my legs or my lower torso. I was pinned by the steering wheel and the crushed wheels. I was in and out of conciseness before the ambulances arrived. They transported me from the scene straight to LAC+USC medical center. 

My injuries were so bad that they had to put me into an induced coma for my body to heal. I was in the coma for over 4 weeks before they knew I had a chance to survive my injuries. I had second-degree burns on my lower legs and multiple fractures. My hands were covered in cuts and burns. I was impaled by a foreign object which was luck it missed any major organs. I don't remember anything from the car crash only a little bit when I woke up. Leo would come in every day and just sit with me. Every day he sang the song we had our first dance too. "Little do you know, How I'm breaking while you fall asleep, Little do you know". I started to build up the strength and then one day I woke from the coma. My head was pounding, and I had sharp pains up my legs and lower back. It took me over a week to be able to get out of bed on my own even though Leo wouldn't let me.

 My nurses were surprised in how quick my recovery was. Every time I moved my lower back it causes a burning sharp pain to travel down my right leg. It was the disc in my lower back that caused the pain as a nerve was stuck on it. I had to lay down and stretch my leg out to move the nerve back. Leo would force me to stretch even though my leg didn't hurt. I had to have three surgeries to fix the discs in my back and to repair the puncture site. Alexander would visit with Krystel after Preschool. He would always bring a get well soon drawing or a craft he had made that day at school. I slowly started walking again thanks to my physio therapist Marie. She made me push myself and rebuild the muscles in my lower legs and back. 

After over 3 months in hospital and therapy I walked out of the ER and got into the car without any work. I had fallen asleep in the car on the ride home. Leo slowly and carefully lifted me out of the car like I was fine china. He laid me on the bed and tucked the blankets around me so lightly. I drifted off into a strange dream. Leo was no longer in love with me because of my burn scars and the large scar going up my abdomen. He just stayed with me because he feels bad about me and is my caregiver. I woke up as soon as I heard him say we're over. When I woke up my chest was tight, and I had sharp pain in my abdomen. Leo must have been in the shower because he had rushed up soaked and a towel around his waist. I didn't care that he was wet I just hugged him until the sharp pain in my lower legs started to get worst. He asked why I had a panic attack, but I didn't have the guts to tell him the real reason, so I told him that it was I just missed Luke. We just sat on the bed and felt each other's warmth and safety.