Lead Me to the Bliss [Faith Seed - Far Cry 5]

𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓉𝑒𝓇 𝓉𝓌𝑒𝓃𝓉𝓎-𝓈𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓃

⚠️Warning: language, cult talk, angst, suicide, etc.
Don't read if you are sensitive to these kinds of situations. You have been warned.⚠️

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While I was staring off into space, thinking, Faith woke up, jarring me back into reality. I shut my journal and placed it in the desk's drawer. Then, I sat the guitar down on the desk.

"What is it?" Faith asked as she yawned and wiped her slobber off with her wrist.

"Uh— I was just writing a song." I replied and stood up in front of the chair, stretching my stuff body from sitting too long.

"What's it about?" She questioned incredulously.

"It's no big deal." I shrugged my shoulders, trying not to make a big deal of it.

"Why's it not a big deal?" Faith inquired, becoming more serious.

"Just drop it, Faith." I snapped a bit too harshly. A headache was beginning to form; my head was already starting to ache as I rubbed my temples in an attempt to soothe the upcoming pain. "God fucking damnit," I muttered in frustration.

Faith looked taken aback by my rather hateful response. "Okay." She murmured, barely above a whisper, while she got up out of bed. "Cool down before you talk to me next time, yeah?" Faith stated sarcastically.

Now it was my turn to be taken aback by her reply. Wow. "Well I'm sorry for being so stressed out!" I shook my head in disappointment and disgust at myself as realization sunk in. "I've killed people, Faith... And it's not something I'm proud of. I killed Nathan, Wheaty... Damn, Nathan deserved it and I hope he rots in hell, but Wheaty was just a kid. He was just a kid... He didn't deserve that. I have blood on my hands! I feel so guilty!"

"Then why did you kill them, Alice? Don't you know that not every problem can be solved with a bullet." Faith was gradually raising her voice.

I stalked over to my girlfriend, "There was no other choice, Faith, and you know it! I couldn't let you die in that bunker! Over my dead fucking body!" I yelled becoming angrier by the second. My pent-up rage getting the better of me. "Wheaty had a gun pointed to your head! You could've died! And I wasn't going to let that happen."

"Maybe you should've! I would be so much happier! I would be in Eden's Gate with Joseph!" Faith shouted, her eyes slowly becoming red with tears threatening to spill.

My heart immediately dropped and my rage sizzled down. "You take that bullshit back!"

Faith shook her head 'no' as she started to cry. "No. I'm right and you know it! I've been stressed too, Alice. I. Just. Lost. My. Brother."

"I hate that for you, Faith. I really do. I tried to save you, John, and Joseph in time, but... I couldn't... I'm sorry. And you know what? Joseph dying is my fault. His death is all my fucking fault. I didn't get to the Wolf's Den in time; I was too busy torturing and killing Nathan..." I confessed angrily, scoffing in the process. Then, I clenched my jaw as Faith and I stared into each other's eyes. I could tell she was upset... There was several different emotions I was feeling at the moment: anger, guilt, sadness, and frustration being four of them.

Faith's eyes were red and teary. Her cheeks were stained with tears as more tears ran down her face. She looked up at me with such sadness in her eyes. My heart hurt for her, but I knew I had to cool off before I say anything else to hurt her. Without another word, I walked out of our shared bedroom and headed to the living room. Trust me, I didn't want to leave her like that, but I also didn't want to hurt her anymore than I already have. God, why did life have to be so tough? I really fucked up... Thankfully, there was no one in the living room as I laid down on the couch. I was thinking about everything that just now happened. Glancing at the clock on the wall, it said it was 2:00am. Jeez, time flies by so quickly. Anyway, I tried to close my eyes to fall asleep.

A few minutes passed and my headache was just settling in. My temples were pounding and my eyes shot open. Then, I stood back up and began to pace around the room back and forth. I rubbed my temples to try and ease the pain, but it wasn't fucking working. As fast as I could, I scurried into the kitchen to find some kind of medicine to help with my intense headache. After finding a bottle of medicine, I took one Tylenol with a bottle of water. Once, I swallowed the pill and chugged the entire bottle of water, I threw the empty bottle away and made my way back to the living room. Hopefully, I could fall asleep.

Once I laid down, I couldn't seem to get comfortable and I kept tossing and turning [and thinking about Faith and thinking I screwed up our relationship]. Although I couldn't get comfortable, the Tylenol seemed to be doing its job and helped ease my godawful headache. At least one good thing is happening to me now.

Eventually, after about an hour or so, I fell asleep, dreaming of Faith... But it wasn't a good dream...

~Alice's Dream~

"Don't. Please." I pleaded, tears flowing down my cheeks like a fucking river. "No, no. God, no. Please, Faith, don't do this." I was too afraid to grab the gun from Faith because I was scared she'd pull the trigger. "I wouldn't be able to live without you, darling. Just please put the gun down... Not every problem can be solved with a bullet."

"You don't understand. I have to do this... You don't love me anymore." Faith's voice cracked as her eyes were teary and red. "I need to be with the Father. Goodbye Alice."

"Wait! Stop! I love you with all of my heart! NO!" I screamed as I reached forward to take the pistol from Faith, but I was too late.

She pulled the trigger and in an instant, the gun and her limp body fell to the floor with two loud thumps.

My jaw dropped open and my heart stopped as I stared at my dead girlfriend. "No. This can't be happening..." I immediately dropped to my knees and held Faith's body against mine. "Wake up, wake up, wake up." I cried as I shook her shoulders.

Her eyes were wide open and glossed over... Lifeless...

~End of Alice's Dream~

I woke up and raised up on the couch, struggling to breathe, all the while tears were burning my eyes. I wiped away my tears and tried to catch my breath, trying to get rid of Faith's pale, dead face out of my mind. The bloody bullet hole in her head was engraved in my thoughts at the moment as I wished the horrible dream was erased from my memory for eternity...

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