Not Ready To Hate You

I ᑎEEᗪ YOᑌ

After Rocky has been thinking so hard if how he going to move on. Something has been popping up in his mind. No matter what it gonna happen, even it will be good or bad. Only thing he need to do it accept it, there no other way around. If he can bared how much pain he gonna get so he shouldn't worry about anything else more. Rocky send the message to Sanha of the thing his brother want and Sanha reply that he understands the situation right now. So he tell him to not worry about it.

Sanha, after getting the message he finally getting out of his room and walking to his senior room to tell all the story. He first going to MJ room. He knocking on the door and not so long MJ come and open the door for him. "Come in" MJ said while open the door wider for Sanha to come inside but Sanha refuse. "It not a big talk, I just want to tell you something from wolf family" Sanha said while still standing in front of MJ room. "Are they fine right now?" MJ asking further cause he worry about them lately. "They are fine as they can be right now, they tell me to tell you that they are not coming back to our house again. They said it better this way. They also apologized that they cannot doing all the mission with you anymore" Sanha said what has been design to do. "That can be predictable, I'm not amazed by knowing this from you" MJ said while having a deep sign at the end.

"I just come to tell you this, I need to tell Eunwoo further. So, I might get going. See you later" Sanha said while don't waiting for MJ to say any goodbye, he then leaving MJ room and heading to Eunwoo room. Sanha again knocking on the door and waiting for Eunwoo to open the door for him. Eunwoo finally rushing out of his bed wish it was his lover who come to him and said everything is just kidding. He ran to his front door and open it. Unluckily, it was his brother. "Sorry that I'm not the one you are looking for" Sanha said while doing a normal face as he should wear at this moment. Eunwoo smile fading for his face indicate that he might thinking that fate might have a mercy on him but that not what it happen. "Anything serious?" Eunwoo asking back with a shaken voice. His voice and his face probably representing that he is not being himself since Moonbin decided to leave him alone. His tears has been screaming down his face all the time. His eyes are swollen due to he is crying a lot.

"I know you might have a hard time now but I would like to tell you rather than keeping it with me. You have a right to know" Sanha said while understanding Eunwoo emotion. "Tell me, it might not be anything worsen that this anymore" Eunwoo said while wiping out his tear from his cheeks. "They are leaving, the wolf family. They are sorry for not helping us with the mission and they also tell me that this is the best way for each of us" Sanha said the soft sentence but it probably make Eunwoo feel like he has been hit quite hard at the exactly the same place when he has not be heal from the first wound. Eunwoo tears screaming down his face again and Sanha know how much pain his brother is carry. So he said "I know Moonbin mean everything to you, I totally understand you. Come here, let me give you a hug" Sanha said while walking inside Eunwoo room and hugging his brother. Sanha embrace might hold a fragment of Eunwoo feeling before it become scatter down into several pieces. His embrace is not too tight and not too loose, he trying to make his brother know that he is on his side. He know it hard to move on from someone we love.

After Eunwoo being hugged by Sanha, he even burst out into more tears. He trying to hold it and keep it inside but Sanha said to him softly aside if his ear "Let it go, I'm your brother remember. You can be weak to me. If you sad, show it. I will be by your side, I'm will not letting you feeling down alone for sure" Sanha whispering aside his brother eyes. Eunwoo finally letting his tears flow by his emotion. Eunwoo said further "Why it have to be me, who always ending up in pain. I just once having an experience on what love is but why it has to end like this. What did I do wrong, why does he have to leave me like this?" Eunwoo said while he still crying in pain. Sanha keep himself quite let Eunwoo let what inside his mind out to him. "I need him, he the reason I'm living here. Do you know how hard I need to go through, carry on living my life endlessly. We are immortal, we live forever that why I don't mind being out of this world and dead. That what I have been thinking lately until he come and change my life" Eunwoo continue saying what inside his mind to his younger brother. Sanha still being quiet but keep patting his brother back trying to soothing him to be better.

"What did I do wrong, am I not good enough. Why don't he tell me and we can fix this out together? Why he chose to run away from me? I though we are in the same place but it seem like I have thinking about it all by myself" Eunwoo continue what in his mind. It seem like what he feel require such a long day to express cause he don't know the exact reason why Moonbin is leaving him like this. He just don't know who he can blame for. Even himself, cause he doesn't know what he did wrong. Thing that he want, is the exact reason of why Moonbin doing this to him. He has been braking up from Moonbin without knowing any reason behind it. If he know, he might find it easier to move on from Moonbin.

This is the second boy love story that I write. If you want to read more about my story. I also finish my first book name "The Best of Me" you can read further if you like. I'm trying so hard to writing this story so please supporting me and if you have any comments or any suggestions, don't hesitate to let me know by chatting with me. I will be online as much as possible to read your suggestions. Thank you so much for your time reading my story. I hope you enjoy. See you next episode.