Eternal Blitz

26. What Happens in HeatWave

Pictured above - Fallon

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There is something about confrontation that stresses me out, even more so when the person I'm confronting is my own boyfriend. For days I've tried to figure out what to do with the information I received from my dad. It's not so much that I'm afraid, but not knowing how it will end is nerve-wracking, and trying to guess his reaction to it only ups my level of stress so much that I've fallen behind on schoolwork. I haven't spoken a word to Blaze since we spent the night together days ago. The only good thing to come from this is knowing that Blaze is just as preoccupied as I am since he and Blane have been working on opening up a new club.

The secret I'm debating on keeping sits at the forefront of my mind and it isn't until the cushion beside me falls do I look up and see Isabel, Rhea, and Gale sitting around me, their eyes filled with curiosity.

You could say that when it comes to inner turmoil I'm somewhat of a coward, Blaze means so much to me and this could ruin it all. I wish like hell I could just come out and say it but the thought of him leaving me hurts. There is a chance I'm being paranoid but I have a reason to.

I can't think straight with this weighing down on me and the only people I feel as if I can talk to are sitting right in front of me.

"So," Isabel nudges me. "Don't you think you should tell them?"

"Tell him what Isabel? That it's plausible I'm the sister to his abuser. What's to stop him from thinking that I won't end up like that, that I won't treat him like that?"

"Half-sister." Rhea chimes.

"Thanks for the clarification." I snap back and frown when her face falls, her body falling into Gale as he wraps his arms around tightly. I blow out a breath dragging my fingers down my face. "I'm sorry Rhea."

She doesn't respond back, only nodding having gotten used to my short temperedness lately. They understand, but it doesn't make me feel any better about it.

"We still don't know if it's true," Isabel reasons. "But either way you can't leave him in the dark. Relationships are based on trust."

I grunt knowing she's right. "What if it is true? What's he going to see when he looks at me? I can't lose him."

My voice breaks and I know I'm on the verge of frustration at this point. I can't decide what to do, and I really don't want to start off my first relationship with a scandal like this.

Of course, I can always expect Isabel to look on the bright side of every relationship except hers but she's always been like that. She stares me down like she knows what I'm thinking and takes my hand leaning forward. "He will see the same person he's always seen. But keeping this to yourself does you no good. I've seen the way he looks at you." She smiles, her eyes lighting up at me as a small smile makes its way onto my face. "Do you really want to change one of the best things to happen to you because you're scared?"

I look to Gale and Rhea who stare intently at me. Rhea smiles softly and I look away blowing a heavy breath before pushing myself up and pulling away from Isabel.

"Maybe." I walk to my room slamming the door and I climb into my bed screaming into my pillow.

My fingers grip the sides until I lose my breath and pull away.

I've never had to think about losing someone because I've never been this attached. Maybe it's the fact that it's my first relationship or maybe it's just Blaze but whatever it is, it's clouding my judgment. I don't want to tell him as there is a chance it's nothing, people have the same names all the time but I would feel even worse if this caught up to me somehow.