Eternal Blitz

11. Seduction Confession

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It's been a few days since I've seen Blaze.

I'm not sure what happened but maybe he wasn't as ready as I thought. After I woke up that morning he was gone. A pillow placed between my arms making up for his absence and the scattered remnants of our time laying across the floor.

I wasn't mad that he left because I can't tell you how many times I've done the same, but I felt it was different with him. He could have at least let me know.

Deciding against calling him I figure I should let him take initiative on whether he wants to talk to me again. Maybe I pushed him too fast too quickly. I'm used to fast pace fucking so going slow is new for me. I'm not entirely sure he's even ready for someone like me but at this point, I don't even think I care. I get what I want, and I want more than anything, Blaze.

For starters, I like him way more than I should and just that is causing problems. Relationships are a no-go, but I feel something for Blaze. It's fucked up that I am who I am making it even harder to be who I want to be. Honestly, I'm not even sure who it is I want to be, but I know I want more than I deserve.

I'm alone today in class and my enjoyment faltered as soon as I stepped through those doors. Gale went with Rhea to visit his family leaving me to sit alone and I am not happy about it. I love his family as some days they are better parents to me than my own but that doesn't mean I'm happy he left.

On Gale's accord, I've been talking to my dad despite the treacherous dinner but unfortunately, my mom and I haven't spoken a word outside of shared communication with dad. I'm not too mad about it seeing as my dad and I are better than ever, but it still stings that to gain one parent I had to lose the other.

My brain is on the verge of exploding as class ticks on. As much as I love Social Psychology it's the teacher I go for. Much to my dismay, not even he can make this shitty day any better. His is easy on the eyes but every look and compliment becomes a comparison to Blaze and there is just no match.

As if my call for the class to end was heard our professor dismisses us and I hurry out of the lecture hall needing a release from all of the thoughts swarming my mind only to be met with the one person in my life besides my mother who can turn a bad day into a shitty one.

"Scoping out your next victim yet." Her high-pitched voice scratches at the back of my head reminding me why I've never liked her.

"Talia." My voice raises a pitch and I take a breath knowing there is no way I can get out of this. "What a pleasant surprise."

I roll my eyes and drop the fake smile etched on my face and go to walk away. Her presence greets me once more and I turn cocking my head to the side. "Can I help you with something?"

Her finger taps her chin as she steps up to me crossing her arms. "Yes, actually it seems as though Jace has taken a break from me and I would like to know why."

"He's probably tired of continuously getting checked for STDs." Low blow, I know but I'm too tired to sit here talking about Jace. "I'd say that takes the fun out of it huh?"

Talia laughs clicking her tongue at me flicking her deep drown strands behind her shoulder. "Funny coming from the campus whore."

Biting my lip, I look down and hold myself back from hitting her. I'm used to being the center of campus rumors and being put down due to the things she's spread but it still gets to me. Even after two years it still gets to me.

"Talia there are over fifteen thousand students on this campus so if you think I'm the only whore here you are sorely mistaken." Unlike Talia, I would never put her down to other people. I may shit on her in my head and to her but even that is going too far.